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Before Weight: 116.6 Body Fat:  16.7%
 4 Weeks Weight: 108.4 Body Fat: 15.1%
8 Weeks Weight: 102.6 Body Fat: 12.2%
 After Weight: 97lbs Body Fat: 10%
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Birthday: April 8, 1969
Birthplace: Mildura, Victoria, Australia
Marital Status: Married
Height: 5'3"
Current Residence: Mildura
Role Models: There are a lot of people I look up to and respect - mostly people who are close to me, not really someone in a fitness magazine, although I admire all of those people.
Best Physical Feature: My smile so I'm told, as far as bodyparts go, I would say my back, waist and calves.
Favorite exercise: Bicep curls and seated row
Least favorite exercise: Leg curls and lunges
Favorite diet food: Cottage cheese
Favorite junk food: Cheesecake
Give a brief description of your personality: Down to earth, easy going, fun loving, independent, determined (maybe even stubborn!), competitive, considerate and generous.
Sunday, May 19, 2002
Trained back today, my forearm was really hurting :( I am really sore from my leg workout yesterday too - glutes are real tight. I emailed George to tell him and he replied saying he was worried about my back and to rest it until it felt better as he doesn't want me getting any injuries.
He told me to put my hot water bottle on it so I brought it to work with me!
posted by Sue Gilman at 7:59 PM
Thursday, May 16, 2002
I did well last night also, just a few sugar free lollies after dinner and a coffee I got into the chiropractor, after waking up yesterday morning with the other side of my back playing up. My glutes have been really tight and sore, which is unusual for when I train hammies. The chiro said my hips were out and that it was my tight glutes that pulled them out. He adjusted me, and it felt better immediately but this morning it was stiff and sore again. So I haven't been able to train for 2 days and will leave it again today and go in tomorrow for a chest/bicep workout. I walked twice yesterday though, as well as this morning. It doesn't bother me when I walk, just when I bend!
posted by Sue Gilman at 8:22 PM
Tuesday, May 14, 2002
Well last night my eating was good, and feel much better for it this morning :) My body is sore though, am training back today, but I am sure I need a chiropractic adjustment.
Sent my competition video to Steve and will send one to Shazza and Dave to have a look at too.
I started back on the pill too, on Saturday. Took about 6 weeks for my body to right itself, not too bad. I will go off it again when I start dieting for the next comp.
I'm trying to decide if I want to have a new song for my next comp or if I should just stick with American Woman. I really like the routine I have, and the song, although if there is the REMOTE chance I could compete in the US with it, I don't know how it would go down, with me being Aussie and all. I know I'd have to forgo the flag.
I had yesterday off work, I was feeling really off, and I spent most of the day in bed or just vegging out. I still have a headache :(
I sent George my before and after pics...he told me he really liked the one of me on the railway track. He said "It's beautiful, I am proud of you!"
posted by Sue Gilman at 12:41 PM
Monday, May 13, 2002
I am so sore :( My hamstrings are killing me, and I must have put something out in my lower back as it hurts to move in certain ways. Why are my hammies so sensitive? My butt is sore, everything is, just from increasing that little bit! Well 10lb is nothing to sneeze at I guess. I had to get a massage last night I was so sore. I think today I am bruised like crazy. I should actually have iced my back when I got home. I also called George last night as I wanted to tell him how hard I am finding controlling my eating. I told him how I get the munchies at night and just keep eating! He basically said to eat a good dinner, including a baked potato or something, and then to just have a strong enough will to not eat after dinner. He said it was ok to eat a piece of fruit though, so that is my plan, to eat dinner, and have a piece of fruit and maybe a decaf coffee for "dessert". He said "Just think of George telling you off!"
He said everything I was eating during the day was fine.
I know one of my problems is having time after work and before bed, and if I don't have anything much to do I get bored and start to pick at food! So I am seriously thinking I will start my Fitness Trainer's Certificate, that way I'll be able to study. Thing is though, after a day at work behind a desk and computer the last thing I feel like doing is more of the same :(
posted by Sue Gilman at 4:14 PM
Sunday, May 12, 2002
Well, I put 10lb more on most of my leg stuff. Was lunging with 20kg of plates plus the big bar, after my superset of curls, which I also increased.
I still have one problem. Getting the munchies after dinner. Tonight I PROMISE myself I will not eat anything after my dinner, except the banana I am allowing myself for "dessert". :)
This morning I am training shoulders. I have decided I will add 2 days of sprints into my program, instead of 2 walks. This should be good for my thighs, and will be something different to shock my body. Just don't want to injure myself. I asked George if I could do a class here or there and he said yes, but his main concern was me getting injured. How devastating would that be?
IMy next trip to Melbourne is in about 10 days time, I'll be flying there (woohoo!!) and staying just 2 nights. I will have to train twice on Sunday - this will be tough!!
I might ask George next time I speak to him about my night time munching...ask him what I should be eating, or what I "can" eat after dinner.

posted by Sue Gilman at 1:04 PM
Saturday, May 11, 2002
Today is Mother's Day, sis and I are taking mum out to lunch, but I have to train first :) She came around for dinner last night too as it was her birthday last week.
I will be training hamstrings today, and I plan to increase weight on these too, and will know for sure how much my creatine is helping, since hamstrings are always a killer for me.
George called me the other day asking for my before and after photos - he wants to add a before/after section to his web site. The site is www.muscleandbodyshape.com.au and is a really well set out site. He also told me he had a dream about me, that I'd "blown up"!! Well, to be honest, I have a bit, those thighs have come back :(( I never thought it would be this difficult to get back into a good routine. Next time I will plan it much better.

posted by Sue Gilman at 3:04 PM
Friday, May 10, 2002
Been increasing my weight in the gym like nothing! Everything by 10lbs, even my arms! The creatine is really helping with the soreness, I can feel it start to happen but it doesn't get any worse.
posted by Sue Gilman at 9:50 PM
Thursday, May 09, 2002
I think I just realised how much I want this. This placing in the Australian titles I mean. I have been really lazy (nutrition-wise) for the last month and it has only just dawned on me that I could be throwing it all away. After speaking to George a couple of times on the phone I realise that if I don't get my shit together I am really going to disappoint him, and I respect him too much to do that. He is one of those people that you can really "hate" sometimes, but after getting to know him I know now it IS just his way, he gives so much and puts his heart and soul into it, and I don't want to let him down.
posted by Sue Gilman at 11:49 PM
Wednesday, May 08, 2002
I just booked 2 airfares for my next 2 trips to Melbourne :) They are having a sale, so I got them for $143 return, it's almost half price! Plus I only have to take one day off work intead of 2, stay 2 nights instead of 3, and the best thing, it takes an hour to get there and not 6!! I will need to call George and change my session times though, I'll have to train 2 x in one day to get 4 sessions in.
I am going to try to book 2 more times, as it is valid up until the end of July.

My legs have swollen up again, they feel terrible. My calves are just full, it's so uncomfortable.

I am taking Taraxatone to try to settle them down.

I played my video for 5 of the guys from work, it was quite amusing, you can imagine some of the crap they were going on with. I warned them to start with no laughing and no smart comments but they said they couldn't promise :) They were good actually I think they were too afraid to say too much!
posted by Sue Gilman at 11:24 PM

I've found I hate having days off from training, I don't know what to do with myself! I have also found that I am tired of sitting in front of the computer all night after work, so I have been giving myself a bit of a break from that. I'm not getting so much email lately which is good for a break, and I haven't been posting on L&S although I do visit most days.
I ordered some photos from my contest, just have to make sure I finish them off by actually framing them!
I have my contest video here at work, was going to play it for anyone who was interested, but I'm a bit chicken.
The girl I've been helping out at the gym gave me a half dozen bottles of wine the other day, 2 of them were packaged with wine glasses! That was a lovely surprise :) She also gave me her brand new tub of protein powder that she hates! I feel bad 'cause I recommended it to her!
posted by Sue Gilman at 4:03 PM
Today I am doing 2 walks, 'cause i feel so yuk.
Got a big package from my buddy Steve yesterday, I ordered a whole stack of fat free sugar free puddings along with a box of Myoplex Lite, box of protein bars for Mike, and some Taraxatone, plus 2 big bottles of sugar free maple syrup! I used to put the syrup on my cottage cheese, but not anymore! I use it on eggs too, as well as oatmeal. The puddings I use mixed with protein powder and milk/water, made into a creamy pudding, and they are awesome. Especially the new flavour he bought for me - white chocolate!! MMMM. Also, he gave me an excellent book on muscle anatomy and weight training - it shows exactly what muscles are used for each exercise. Plus - Girl Scout cookies! For a treat. They are awesome, he knows how much I like Peanut Butter, and that is what they are.
I had a great leg workout yesterday morning, increased almost all my weights by 10lb. My leg press was 340lb - 4 x 10, and that is after extensions and squats.
I have also decided to take creatine and glutamine during my "off season" and may actually continue with the glutamine right through while dieting. I just have to remember to take the stuff!
Ok, well I am off, will write more today. Gotta get up to date!
posted by Sue Gilman at 1:07 PM
Well things are still up and down for me, I can't stabilize. I feel really bloated still, and I know why, I am just eating way too much food. I'm like a kid in a candy store!! Way too much on offer now that I am allowed to eat! So, I have figured out once again what I already really knew about myself, I guess I just become a little "cocky". I need some direction. I need a plan. Yeah yeah, I said that before I know, but things are really getting out of control now and I have to regain control before I lose it.

I need to be on a constant "diet" it seems. So this is my plan. I think it needs to be similar to my contest diet so that my body doesn't shock when it changes
:
Meal 1: Myoplex Lite or 1 egg & 3 whites, mushrooms and 2tbsp rice
Meal 2: 1/2 cup oatmeal, 1 scoop whey protein, butterbuds and cinnamon
Meal 3: tuna/salmon (can be flavoured), 4 tbsp rice, salad
Meal 4: protein bar/MRP/Protein shake/"protein pudding" - choose 1
Meal 5: Chicken/steak/eggs/salmon/fish, baked potato/sweet potato, vegetables, small amount of sauce or marinade, preferably low carb, glass of wine with dinner if desired

NOTHING AFTER DINNER. Coffee, diet sodas allowed.
Free meal once per week preferably pasta.

Cottage cheese, my favourite food, is OUT. I just can't control my intake of it!!

Training:
4 x week, however I will split this into 1 bodypart per day in the off season. I will train in the mornings, and walk in the evenings.
i.e.
Monday: Hamstrings, extras
Tuesday: Back
Wednesday: Legs/calves, extras
Thursday: Triceps/Biceps
Friday: Chest, extras
Saturday:
Sunday: Shoulders, extras

Walk 45 mins every night.

Gotta keep remembering my goal to place in the Australian Titles!!!!!!!!
posted by Sue Gilman at 4:29 AM

Thursday, May 02, 2002
Just got done with George - trained legs today. I was so worried about facing him, but he actually said I looked pretty good still. He said some of the girls blew up but I didn't look too bad. He said "you look more beautiful!". I asked him about diet and so forth, but he said he would wait until he looks at me before I leave to go home. He said he doesn't want me dieting, but I told him I'd been having trouble since the comp ended and just want something structured to follow.
I had forgotten how hard it was training with George. I am going to be very sore tomorrow!!
Well this is short, I am off to buy groceries, and maybe go to the casino. And have some dinner out somewhere, instead of just fish :) Yay. Even a glass of wine maybe.
posted by Sue Gilman at 1:37 AM
Monday, April 29, 2002
God I feel like I am 6 months pregnant with a bloated stomach today :( Yuk. Hope it's gone by tomorrow.
Been training hard and heavy, increasing my weights now since I feel stronger now I am eating again! I think I will start taking creatine again while I try to put on some muscle.
posted by Sue Gilman at 10:30 PM
Sunday, April 28, 2002
Well haven't written in awhile! Weight is going back up :( I have realized that I need a plan for everything, otherwise I drift way off track. Too much living it up recently! So, for me, today starts the next 12 week Challenge :)

Goals are:
To not let my weight increase over 110lbs
To keep my body fat % at 15 or under
Build more muscle by sticking to a PLANNED diet
And one that has been letting me down of late:
NO SNACKING BETWEEN PLANNED MEALS

Then following this 12 week stint will be my 12 weeks of dieting to the Australian Titles at the end of October.

posted by Sue Gilman at 11:07 PM

Sunday, April 21, 2002
Today I am feeling fantastic!! Finally my body has settled down - weight is still stabilizing, was 105.8 this morning :) I have lost all the fluid, and getting some definition back. Can almost see my 6 pack again.
I walked twice yesterday and once this morning and was powering along :)
I just had a big bowl of oatmeal and protein powder for brekky...YUM.
Got some excellent photo proofs from another photographer, this time black and whites. I have my eyes closed in most of them of course!
posted by Sue Gilman at 4:38 PM
Saturday, April 20, 2002
Been a while since I updated. I finally feel the bloating is subsiding, thankfully. I finally had the courage to get on the scale this morning and I am 107lb!! Not as bad as I thought, but it's a bit scary,10lb in 2 weeks!! Tondra said that everyone has put on around 3-4kg so I guess I am not the only one. I was starting to panic there for awhile.
I am really sore from my chest and bicep workout yesterday! I actually had energy and strength to train (all that good livin' lately!) and I increased my weight on most exercises. So if I am sore today, imagine tomorrow. I have been helping out a lady in the gym who emailed me. It was really weird (but cool) to receive an email from someone who actually trains at the same gym and asking for advice. So we have been training at the same time and I have been showing her some new exercises etc, since she said she has ben on the same program for 12 months! I gave her advice with her eating program (she wasn't eating anywhere near enough protein and too many carbs) - I advised her along the lines of the Body For Life nutrition program. I talked her into entering a Challenge as an incentive, so that will be great.
I still haven't got my sister in there yet, must call her and see what's up.
Actually went out and had a couple of Chardonnay's yesterday afternoon, caught up with my local trainer and showed him my photos from the comp, since I haven't seen him much since then. Wine tasted GOOD :)
Today I think I will do a couple of walks.
My next trip to Melbourne is in 2 weeks - I have to go down for a workshop for work, so I figured it would make sense to take a day off the next day and stay all weekend to train. At least I avoid the 6 hour drive that way! So I'll be down from Wed night through to Sunday.
posted by Sue Gilman at 2:53 PM
Tuesday, April 16, 2002
My baby is in hospital :(
I am so glad I booked him in today, had it not been that his injection was due I may have waited another day or so. We took him in tonight and the vet said it was an emergency and that we would have to leave him. He had been moping about since yesterday. Laying in one spot, not talking to us, not moving much, and just really depressed and sad looking. I can always tell when he isn't well because he gets such a sad frowny face on. I thought he could have been sooking about something, but when he didn't move from the computer room when I got up this morning i knew something wasn't right. He usually is all over me in the mornings. I gave him some grass to eat last night and he really munched that down. He had been off his food since yesterday too. Plus when we thought about it, he hadn't used his dunny (litter tray!) since we cleaned it on Sunday night. I felt his belly today but he didn't make any noise when I touched it, but it felt blown up which was strange since he hadn't eaten.
So, vet said right away his bladder was HUGE. He has a blockage, poor baby, she said they had to get him out the back right away and stick a needle in him to start draining it out. If it doesn't drain, then there may be stones and he will have to have surgery. I have to call them in the morning. Either way he will have to be put on a special diet for the rest of his life. He looked so uncomfortable the poor thing. Mike kept saying there was nothing wrong with him, I told him I'm never listening to him again! I didn't listen anyway, I knew there was something up. So, cross your fingers for him that he is ok :(

I took the afternoon off today as I didn't have a lot of work on, so I came home and actually slept for a couple of hours! Then I went out to the cemetery to visit my Dad's grave. I don't often go out there (it's an avoidance thing) and for some reason something made me go today. Tomorrow is the 14th anniversary of his death. I took some flowers out, and I sat down and I made a promise to him. I promised him that I was going to give 200% to placing in the Open division at the Australian titles so that I could qualify to compete in Arizona. My dad always wanted to go to the US and he never ever did. Life is too short. I want to do this for him. So, I wrote my promise down on a notepad and signed it while sitting by his side. Then I took a photo of the headstone and my promise. I will keep that on the fridge at home to remind me of my goal. Zach if you read this, I'd like to put the picture up on this site so everytime I log in to write, I will see my Dad :)


posted by Sue Gilman at 2:21 AM

Monday, April 15, 2002
I still haven't come down from the clouds about my win, but I am still struggling with the eating. I've just been out of control for the whole week. You know how it is, well maybe you don't, but it's not easy that's for sure! I do expect to put on weight of course, but wow, I have never experienced such an overnight blow up!!! It's pretty scary. Today I have done better.

I called George today and spoke to him for the first time since the comp - he's been on holidays. I told him I had gone a bit overboard with the eaing...his first reaction was "Shit! We talked about what to do..etc etc" but then he said "oh don't worry too much about it, we still have lots of time, just eat good food, avoid the fried food, and you can have a small piece of cake every now and then." I said I want to compete in August, he said "WHY?!!" I said "because it was fun!". He laughed and then said that he thinks I should save myself for October as he doesn't want me dieting and being too hard on my body, he wants to put some muscle on me prior to then - he even told me I don't have to do ANY walking!!! Wow, what will i do with all my spare time!! I'll be able to have a life :) No, actually, I have really been missing my training over the past week. I discovered that I will be competing in the Open division - I actually thought I would be competing in Novice but since I actually won the event, it means I am qualifed for the Open. Which is good, because, if I place 1, 2 or 3, I qualify to compete in the Olympia, in Arizona in November!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not banking on it, but how nice would that be! My buddy Steve told me to "bust my ass" to get to Arizona because he will come and watch me :)

I received my first issue of the subscription I won to Ironman magazine tonight. I flicked through to check out the monthly tranformation winner and guess what? It was ME again! They ran the same story and pic from the Women's Fitness! Cool, Ironman is the "BIG TIME"!! It is actually a bodybuilding mag whereas the other one is a womens health/fitness mag.

I also had Sandra Jose from AWMA (Australian Women with Muscle Assoc) suggest I catch up with her over coffee next time I am in Melbourne and tell her all about my pre comp preparation for an article in Ironman!! (She writes a monthly article for the mag). I wrote her a number of times prior to finding a trainer and also during my prep and she was very helpful. I emailed her and told her I'd won my event and she was thrilled for me! She was there for the prejudging but said she didn't even recognise me! This is an excerpt from her email to me:

Yes I do remember actually it was pretty straight forward that you were going to win, none of the others had much muscle development and you had better shape.

So that was nice to hear.

I actually have caught up on most of my email now, wow, I must have written 200 emails over the weekend!

Oh, my mum washed my posing suits to try to get the tan out of them - they are ruined :( She only washed them by hand but she must have scrubbed too hard because all the shiny stuff has become really dull. She felt so bad about it. It's ok, means I get to have NEW ones next time :) Only $200 down the toilet!!

George also told me that I will need to come down more often this time - at least every three weeks! Yikes. How expensive and time consuming is that gonna be! I need to find a friend in Melbourne who will put me up!

Ok I am off to read fellow dream teams blogs.

posted by Sue Gilman at 4:45 AM

Saturday, April 13, 2002
After it was all over, I HAD to go eat some "real" food!! Even though Mike had bought me a chocolate bar for a surprise, so I had already eaten that plus a protein bar :) We drove all the way back to St Kilda because I really really wanted some cappuccino cheesecake from this shop there - well, they didn't have it did they? I ordered a pizza for dinner, but it wasn't the best pizza I've ever eaten that's for sure, which was a disappointment. Then for dessert I got a piece of Bailey's Cheesecake - it was pretty awesome. Then, I felt very sick :)) But it didn't matter, it was worth every bit of it! Next day I felt fine, and we drove home to Mildura. My mum read Ironman magazines the whole way home! She's converted!!
II really wished I had have been able to call people on my phone, too bad it was broken :(
THe next day was my birthday, and I was on such a high all day. I took my trophy to work to show everyone, and so many people said "wow, you kept that quiet, I didn't even know you were doing it!". Method to my madness :) Everyone was really happy for me. I went out for lunch with mum and I had pasta and this awesome grain bread - with butter!! Then that night Mike and I went out and this time I had gnocchi, and more bread and then a Macca's McFlurry for dessert (Blizzard for the US people). The next day my poor body was wondering what the hell was going on. Ok, I didn't listen to George's good advice of avoiding salt, and too many carbs. I was blown up like the elephant woman! I still am almost a week later :( Well, it's improving, but slowly. I actually have not added any salt to anything, but obviously so many processed foods and breads and cheese and stuff have a lot of sodium in them. I was surprised to actually do a quick count of the sodium I was eating during my contest diet. It's very low at about 1000mg day. I looked at a little tub of cottage cheese and it contains half of that in just that little tub!! Yikes. And cc is meant to be good for you! So, here is what I figure. Ok, I have had my week off. I feel very BLAH. Not enjoyable! So, today I have made a concious effort to drink 15 glasses of water (7 so far) and have no salt at all (ie go back to my contest diet), and tomorrow night I will call George and confess (uh oh, well he might not be so hard on me with a bit of luck, he's been on holiday all week!), and ask for his advice. Perhaps he'll let me add some oatmeal in the mornings, and a banana or something later on. I also want to ask him about competing in the August show. I really like to have a goal, and if I have to wait until October I will feel like I'm drifting. Since I am in pretty good shape now, if I just ease up a bit on the diet, keep training hard, then I should get there without having to go crazy walking twice a day and I should be able to eat a bit more. Plus, August will give me more experience, it's just another small show. I'd then have to hold it until October but it's ok, when I have something to focus on I'm fine, it's when I'm drifting I lose the plot!


posted by Sue Gilman at 7:40 PM

Wednesday, April 10, 2002
I could see my mum in the crowd going crazy, which was so cool, because remember how negative she was about all this? Her comment of "I don't want to go and watch naked women prancing around on stage"?? The lady that presented me with the trophy almost slipped over when walking over to me. I'm surprised there aren't more injuries! Then we did our victory pose but I was on the wrong side, so that sucks, for the pictures I will be in the wrong position. I could hear George yelling out from the crowd "Sue baby, change positions, go in the middle!". So then I changed spots with Maria and we did our best pose. When I walked off, my head was in the clouds!! I couldn't believe I had won!! Mike was out back and he hugged me so tight, and kept saying how proud he was of me. Then George came out and gave me a hug. Lots of people congratulated me. On the way out at the door, the Victorian President congratulated me and said "now you have to do the Australia's!" (meaning the Aus titles in October, as that is what i am qualified for now).
I finally got back to my seat and mum just hugged and kissed me - she was so excited I thought she would wet herself!!
posted by Sue Gilman at 6:29 PM
Tuesday, April 09, 2002
I was pretty pleased with how I hit all my poses, even the shoes didn't cause me any problems. Not that I thought they would, they are actually pretty comfortable believe it or not. After that was all done, we went backstage and were all relieved it was over.
Mike came backstage as soon as it was over and said how great I did. I got changed and went out in the crowd and watched the rest of the show until it was time to go and get my hair done again. This time I had it done long for the night show. I had my makeup retouched also and she made it even more dramatic for night time. We got back to the show at 5pm just in time for Ron Williams seminar. Then we watched the pre show entertainment - Sue Stanley's aerobic dance team - they are just awesome, wish I could do that! Then George hunted us all backstage again, rather early I thought but anyway. Got changed into my red suit, then Maria let me borrow some of her silver body glitter spray - this was good because by this stage the tan is starting to look a bit shabby. George oiled me up again (prior to glitter) and then we all pumped up again. Oh - on the way to the hairdressers I ate a Cadbury Dream Easter Egg!! Man did it taste good! Then prior to the show I ate a protein bar, ate my chicken already too but I was starving. I shouldn't have, because then i had a bit of a tummy ache.
Night routine didn't go so well which bummed me because that is the one that will be on video :(
What happened was that I almost slipped when going into one of my first poses - on the chair. The floor was so slippery i nearly toppled off the chair. It put me off for the rest of the routine - made me nervous. I had a hard time smiling and enjoying it as I was afraid of slipping over. :( After all the routines were done we all came back on for the 30 second posedown. We were all joking about how we would "push and shove" each other around a bit for the audience, but that didn't happen. I was too afraid to move due to the slippery floor!
Then...we all lined up for the announcement. Equal 4th (all unplaced competitors are 4th) were the 2 girls I thought wouldn't make it. They just weren't lean enough. Then, they announced 3rd and I was expecting to hear my number. But no!! It was Ingrid. My mum went crazy in the crowd as she knew I had placed first or second. Mike said he was so embarrassed! Then, they announced first place. They dragged it out by asking the crowd who they thought should win and stuff like that, and then, they said it - Number 19!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was ME!! Man, I could not believe it, I was shocked.
posted by Sue Gilman at 6:55 PM
Monday, April 08, 2002
Thanks Zach! Truly appreciated :))
I WON I WON I WON :))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I am over the moon, can you tell??? It was so unreal, words can't describe it. My mum and my husband arrived on the Friday night, and met me at the gym. We had to go through one last "look" in front of George - he told me to go home and eat some chicken and a potato (I'd already eaten dinner). I had another coat of tan put on that night by Tondra - she showed Mike how to do it for the morning. We didn't get back to the room until about 10.30pm. Got up at 6am on the morning of the comp, Mike did a great job on my tan, and then we got organized and left to go to my first hair appointment. He did a great job I thought, and then I had my makeup done. Sinead was excellent. Everything went smoothly thankfully, so we were on time when we arrived at the show. In fact, we sat around for quite a while which was good, seeing all the other competitors coming in and so forth. George had 9 girls competing, and 2 of them walked by me and didn't recognize me (hair and makeup!). We had great seats. Then we had a competitors meeting on the stage, and Wayne went through the ins and outs of what to do and what not to do. He made it pretty relaxing for us, and I think this speech really ironed out any nerves I may have had. I found out when I got the program that I was in the same class as Maria (whom I think has a fantastic body and has competed 3 times before), and Ingrid (who looks like a beautiful barbie doll with big blue eyes and blonde hair down to her waist!) so I was thinking already I was way behind the eight ball. Anyway, George wanted us dressed in our suits right away and he was rushing us backstage, yet we had heaps of time. I was so glad I had Mike out the back to help me, because if he wasn't there I don't know what I would have done. George oiled us up (he was so rough!) and then he pumped us up by getting us to do push ups, dips and other stuff using a towel. I thought he did this way too early but I guess he knows best. We also started drinking our scotch! That was great, even though I hate it! Ingrid had downed quite a bit by the time we were going on! I must admit, it was fun, us 3 girls had quite a bit of comeraderie going on. In fact all of the girls from the gym were great with each other.
I felt a little nervous while we were waiting for the prejudging, but I stayed calm and went through my routine in my head. I heard my mobile phone ring but couldn't answer it because it was broken, but it was my buddy from the US calling me to wish me luck! In all the time we have been email buddies this was the first time I have heard his voice and it was just the best! He left me a beautiful message - thanks Steve (www.2-fit.com).
So - we were all called to the stage and off we went! There I was, having reached my goal of being up on stage!!!! Once I got up there I was fine. The first round was the symmetry round, where we had to do 1/4 turns while the 10 or so judges compared our bods. They made us change positions and have us go around again. Then they called myself and Ingrid out to the front to compare, so we went around again. Then one more time all together.
Then we walked off and it was straight into the 60 second routine without music. I was second on stage for this. My routine went perfectly!!! The floor was quite slippery though and made it difficult to hold poses on the floor.
After that was over it was a relief as this was the thing that I was most worried about. Then we put our shoes back on and went straight into the Posing round. By now I was feeling pretty comfortable up there on stage :)

posted by Sue Gilman at 9:39 PM
Thursday, April 04, 2002
Well, nothing is sacred anymore! I had to stand up there almost naked (at least he let me keep my knickers on!) on the table while George showed Tondra how to tan me. Anyway, last night I didn't get home until after 11pm and was very tired. Good thing I could sleep in this morning. Got up at 8.30am. I went to the kitchen to cook my breakfast, and get my lunch ready and I could not see my chicken and rice anywhere. Guess what? Someone threw it in the BIN!! I cooked it all up just 2 nights ago, and someone threw it away! I was SO pissed. It seems they wanted the dish I used to store it so just figured they'd throw it out! I had like 6 chicken breasts in there. I complained to the hotel about it, not that they can do much but some people just have no respect.
I have had 2 broken nails since I had them done. $85 and 2 break. So I had to get a fix up job yesterday, then another broke that night so that is something else i have to do today. I also have to go buy some scotch, to swig before I go onstage! Seriously, George wants us all to buy it. For vascularity. I reckon he just wants the leftovers!! :) Today I am back to the "strict" diet, and down to 2 glasses of liquid. I had a coffee this morning so that counts as one.
I just had another tan put on, this time a girl called Mandy did it. This time I had to stand almost naked in the girls bathroom with everyone in there getting changed! It was good talking to her and Maria though. So tonight we all have to be in there at 7pm for our last pep talk and posing practise. Not allowed any liquid (or food i imagine) after 6pm. So that's about it for now. Hopefully my last coat of tan will be tonight, it will be too rushed to do another in the morning.
posted by Sue Gilman at 6:31 PM
I am sitting here waiting to go have my first coat of tan put on! I have had my last shower until after the comp!!! Ewwww, gonna be smelly by then. I shaved everything tonight, well, almost everything, and so now all primed up for my colour. Let me start at the beginning:
Had my routine training with Tondra last night, she was really pleased with it. Showed George and he said "Hmmm, you might win the best routine with that one...I like it!" I still can't decide whether to wear my ice blue suit or the darker one. I practised in my light one tonight - was kinda weird walking all round with just that on. There were a couple of guys in the room at the same time but I just did my own thing. My shape has changed!!! I actually think I am looking ALRIGHT!!! My legs have come up well, can actually see some quad definition finally. James this one is for you - I like my legs :) Anyway, George came in and he stood with his hand on his chin and watched me pose. Then he says "Tonight - I want you to eat a steak for dinner. And a baked potato, and then have a banana after your dinner. You are getting skinny!!" Then later he told Tondra that he thought I must have been starving myself! I can't win!! So he asked me "You been eating exactly what I tell you?" The stupid thing was, I was allowed to eat this extra food and I wasn't even hungry!! I ate it though, and it was good :) I didn't eat steak though - i told George i had nothing to cook it on so he said have 1.5 chicken breasts instead.
This morning I trained hammies and shoulders at 11am. Maria is doing my tan in the morning (another girl who is competing) so I had to meet her to confirm the time. Then after that George wanted to check me out again, so this time he told me to eat 8tbsp rice, and the baked potato but no banana tonight. I then had a complimentary spa at the beauty salon I have been going to and then a beautiful relaxation massage. Then I wandered the streets looking for my final bits of jewellery...finally think I have it all! I bought Tondra a present and called mum to have her bring something down for George tomorrow night.
So - here I am! Today my water was cut back only slightly, tomorrow all I get to drink all day is 2 glasses of fluid. Then from 6pm nothing. Tomorrow I am not meant to walk around much (George never said this but my buddy Steve says it makes you retain fluid in the legs, don't want that!) so will be a quiet relaxing day waiting for Mike and my mum to arrive that night! When they arrive, we have to go to the gym for another coat of tan, this time by Tondra. She will teach Mike for the morning one. I can't believe it, it's nearly here!! Am SO glad I stuck with it and didn't give up. The changes in my body just the last week or 2 have been pretty amazing. I guess I just needed to have faith in my trainer and myself :)


posted by Sue Gilman at 3:19 AM

Tuesday, April 02, 2002
It's Wednesday, not long to go now! i am still chugging down the water....but tomorrow will start dehydrating. George feels our abs every time we go in there, he pinches, and prods around. He said yesterday to me "perfect, coming up well, harder." Yesterday I had the best day of compliments :) Let me start at the beginning of the day. I walked into the city, went to Starbucks for my coffee then walked to a shopping mall on Collins St to this nail place. They fitted me in right away which was great since they were fully booked for the rest of the day. I got some acrylic nails (man are they hard to type in!!) and then I tried to call to have my mobile phone fixed (I dropped it the day before and the mic broke off it, which is a real bummer because I really want to speak to people when I am all alone down here!) but they told me it would take 7 days!! Then I checked mail, lots of nice supportive emails from all my friends and acquaintances (thank you!) and then I trammed it back to the hotel after doing a little shopping. I bought some more jewellry - I am still unsure what suit to wear in the morning. And still unsure about having my hair up or down in the morning too.
I then trained at 3pm and my training partner was Richard Stubbs, who has a radio program here in Melbourne, the Richard Stubbs Breakfast Show, like a talk show thingy. I didn't know who the hell he was because we don't get the station in Mildy, but I had heard it whilst in Melbourne and it's funny as hell. He shook my hand and introduced himself as Richard, and told me I was looking good and asked me about the comp etc. It wasn't until I heard him talking about "gigs" and one of the other girls came in and said she recognised his voice, that I thought he must be "someone?" So in between sets I ran over and asked her!!
So, trained legs and triceps, and I keep going through my routine every time I get a spare minute. I then walked around Richmond and found a place to have a pedicure. My poor neglected little feet, they needed it, never had one before! Then I just made it back to the gym in time for my routine training with Tondra. Saw a couple of the other girls routines and they look good, a bit more gymnasticy (not a word but I know what I mean!) than mine. Cartwheels and stuff. In the room were about 20 guys boxing, Sue Stanley and her team (of 3) aerobic dance students and Tondra and me! So it was a full house. I did my routine a few times and also did a practise posedown and went through all my compulsory poses. The routine is feeling really good now. Sue Stanley, who is an absolute icon in Australian fitness - she is the current Ms Fitness Olympia for the INBA and has a huge web site, written books, is the editor of Women's Fitness & Sport magazine (the one I was in) and teaches aerobic dance (her students are doing a performance at the show - they are unreal!!), was watching me do my routine. She said to me afterwards, and this has got to be one of the best compliments ever, that I had come up really well. She said she "loved my abs!" She asked what my body fat % was and said 5 or 6? I said no way, I'd be around 10%. She said no way, she competes in Fitness at 9 or 10 and I was way more ripped than that. :) She's even tinier than me, at 5'1".

I saw Wayne today and he said I looked "sensational - your arms look great!" He said I didn't even look drawn. He said "I can't believe how fantastic you look, everything, you look great! You've really peaked!" So that was another nice compliment :)

This morning I trained at 10, walked around the town a bit before that. George felt my abs again, said they were beautiful. I said to him "check out my veins!" cause they were popping out everywhere after training biceps, and he said "I have done a good job on you!". After I finished I ran and grabbed my digital camera and got Karen to take a couple of shots of me with George. They turned out pretty good too.
Now I am waiting for my full body scrub in an hour or so, that will be nice!! Tomorrow I am having a massage after my last training session. I am pampering myself :) Will worry about the credit card later!
Tonight I have routine again with Tondra, I will get some more pics if I think of it.
I think they are going to use me as a guinea pig for applying the tan on Friday, since I don't have anyone here to do it for me.
Ok, time to go.
posted by Sue Gilman at 6:25 PM

Sunday, March 31, 2002
Had a good drive to Melbourne, uneventful, and the traffic was quiet due to it being Easter.
I got to the gym and did a shoulder workout on my own as I couldn't fit it in before I left. I saw George for 5 seconds first, and he looks me up and down up and down and says "baby you look alright! Skinny! Beautiful" !!! Anyway, he then called me over and feels the skin on my abs (because I had a jacket on before) and he says "that's alright, I was worried about you (cheating)." Anyway, then I practised with Tondra, in my outfit, doesn't leave much to the imagination, in fact we changed the end pose because the audience would have been able to see what I had for breakfast otherwise (which wouldn't have been much anyway I guess!).

She got me to do a 30 sec posedown too. I have two more hour sessions with her so should be fine. Then we all individually went into this room where they had stage lights set up and a table to stand on. Wayne was there, Deborah, and Sue Stanley (she's "famous" in aussie aerobics and is now one of George's converts) and of course George. Wayne put me through the symmetry poses, and told me instead of facing front on, a little to the side was better for me. Also, the back one, he said that when I spread my back one side spreads more than t he other so better off just to stand relaxed for the symmetry. Then went through the poses, he loved my side chest, and said all the others were fine. He corrected my arms on my front db bicep (lowered them a bit) and my back pose. He said "beautiful" but I just don't know if people are trying to make me feel good! I am a bit paranoid I guess. George never said anything at all, it was all up to Wayne. We had to wait for everyone to go through individually so in the meantime it was good chatting to all the other girls. One lady came out with a few tears - she was told to change her bikini from a g-string to a full bottom apparently because her butt isnt so good which surprises me because she looks hard as a rock! She's an older woman but looks great. Another girl was told she may be too vascular - she is lean as hell and has veins galore in her arms.

Then I had to wait around and buy a couple of tickets off Wayne for the show - he gave me 3 rows back, centre :)

Then I had to wait for George to see if he wanted to make any changes to my diet. He didn't, just took a couple of tbsp rice away, but said I would be too skinny if I was depleted any more. Thank god!! He said my face looked really drawn on "stage" and so did Tondra.

I want to get a massage this week, but have to be careful not to bruise. I was also thinking of getting full body exfoliation today or tomorrow. As well as my finger and toe nails. Love all this pampering!!

Oh you should see the room I am in at the hotel!! It is awesome. I was upgraded due to that mix up a while back. I have this huge room (big enough to practise my routine in!) and it is just beautiful. Much better than the pokey little rooms I have been using.

I weighed in at 97.4lbs this morning. I feel so small!! Tondra said when I was doing my routine i looked like a "little angel". I said I don't want to look like a little angel!!! She said when I was up on stage that I looked really muscular, so that is good.

I also had a guy come up to me in the gym and ask if I was competing on Saturday. It used to be like "are you competing in April" now it's "Saturday"...yikes, it's here!! Anyway he said I looked great :) Tondra also said "and you are going to be in Ironman!!" She said that Jonathan the editor said so, but I haven't heard anything. He also trains at Georges.

I put a pair of jeans on the other day that I used to wear when i was 19. Levis. Over the years I have used them as my weight guage...sometimes I couldn't get into them, sometimes they would look good, and now - there is no way i could wear them, they are like BAGS!!!

I had Tondra take a few digital pics of me doing some of my posing routine too. I will have stacks of pics after this weekend!

posted by Sue Gilman at 5:03 PM

Friday, March 29, 2002
Got up at 9.30am and felt SO refreshed after a good sleep!! I then got stuck into my laundry. I wasn't feeling hungry so I didn't eat until early afternoon - bad girl, but I figure why eat if I am not hungry, I know I'll be hungry later. Not a great philosophy but when you have only so many calories allowed per day it gets a bit like this :) So, I walked twice in the afternoon, and practised my routine in the evening. I had a nice relaxing day even though I had a lot of chores to get done. Funny isn't it, when a day full of chores and walking is described as relaxing :)
This morning I got up at 7, walked at 8, then tanned at 9. Went shopping for some jewellery for my outfits. I bought a black choker and black drop earrings with a red stone in them, and a wide black wrist bracelet - it's all beady type stuff so it all matches. Was hard to choose things without being able to try them on with my suit. ANyway, I got them, tried it all on just now and it looks good :) I also bought just a sparkly diamonte ring (big stone) to wear with my blue outfit in the morning. Although when I get it home, it's kind of big and keeps slipping off my finger. I just want simple things for the prejudging, so just the ring, and some diamonte clips in my hair. It was funny, I went to two stores, and both the women were asking what I wanted the jewellery for. I showed them my costume and they were asking all kinds of questions. They both said i looked great, one said my arms looked fantastic, and the other said my abs were awesome and she wanted some just like them :) It's nice they were interested.
I am feeling tired right now, might have a snooze. I trained chest and bis today, did my extras (even lunges!) and then practised my routine and actually feel like it's coming to me without thinking now! I even did the night one following the morning one without any trouble (both without music). Never got to doing it in front of a crowd though. Will have to wait for "the day" now, unless I show some people at George's gym.
I've gotten quite a few emails regarding my article in Women's Fitness. Mostly women asking advice :) It's great to get so much feedback.
So this afternoon I have to pack (I have a shitload to take with me!!) and walk and that's about it, just some odds and ends. I have to train hammies and shoulders in the morning before I leave - I have to go to a different gym as mine is closed for Easter :( Then I want to leave by 10am. Earlier if possible in case I need to take a nap.
I must say I am really pleased that I have stuck through with this, I could have given up at two different stages, in fact 3, but some people talked some sense into me thankfully. I still don't think I'll look as good as I want to, but I am prepared to get up on stage now at least.
posted by Sue Gilman at 7:00 PM
Thursday, March 28, 2002
.Been missing for a bit! Still struggling along, it's not easy at this stage, every day is a test. At least now I have finished work until the comp is over. I'm having trouble getting enough sleep, I seem to be waking early in the mornings still. i.e. 4am today, 3am the other day. When this happens I don't have a lot of energy for afternoon training.
Yesterday I had a really weird day. I felt tired, sort of dizzy, my eyes were all weird and I was on edge all day. It was like if someone said the wrong thing to me I would have snapped. Very strange. I walked on the treadmill in the morning but didn't train as I had to start work at 8 instead of 9. So I had to get all my training in after work, didn't get my extra cardio in because I had a massage booked. I had a chiropractor session on Wed and he really worked my forearm, it actually feels pretty good now. I have been taking it slightly easy with my training sessions lately, my body is a bit sore and tired, so I'll leave the hard work for when I train with George.
Today all I have to do is 2 walking sessions, and I want to practise my routine in my posing suits. I have heaps of laundry to do, and start packing for my trip. Mike left for Mulwala last night and I won't see him until the day before the comp :( Felt really lonely knowing that yesterday. I guess at least it will enable me to concentrate on myself now.
I tried to call George last night like he wanted, but the phone was busy and I was just too tired to hang around waiting. I'll call him today.
Tomorrow I am going to look around for some jewellery and beading for my posing suits. I also have to tan, walk, train, walk and pack. It's Easter so it's going to be mayhem around town too.
I have had a couple of people at work mention my magazine article. I never told anyone about it, just wanted to keep it quiet, but they found it. They haven't brought a copy to work yet, but I warned them, no funny business (ie. no putting up on the noticeboard) or I'll be pissed :)
Ok time for me to head back to bed to get the rest of my night's sleep!
posted by Sue Gilman at 9:28 AM
Tuesday, March 26, 2002
Yesterday I died around 3.30pm and had to have a sleep when I got home instead of going to the gym. I got up at 6, then trained from 7 until 8.30pm.
posted by Sue Gilman at 3:00 PM
Monday, March 25, 2002
Sunday I slept in until about 8, then after breakfast walked into the city with mum and Frank. We had coffee at Starbucks, got harrassed by some drunk African guy, then they went their separate way while I got on the internet for awhile. I then jumped on a train out to Richmond for training. Was meant to be with Tondra at 12, but someone stuffed up and she had double booked. Went through my routine a few times with her quickly, then trained with George at 1pm. When I was done I trained back to the city, more internet, then trammed it to the hotel. Was so tired by now, I had a half hour nap, then showered and got ready to drive back to the gym for posing. Well, we all sat around for awhile, then George came in and gave us a speech, told us that this will be the last time we are all together before the comp as Wayne will be taking the posing next week. Asked if we had any questions, and ran through our diets and also told us how he will be "taking the water from us". We have to start drinking 3 litres of water per day to flush everything out. Reminds me, time for a drink :) Then we all lined up, I had my red posing suit on, and we all had our heels on. We all looked pretty damn good!! Even me!!! I actually look in proportion now, even to myself!! My legs looked long and lean and my abs are looking great. My shoulders still appear wide with a good amount of muscle. Tondra text messaged me yesterday when I was driving home and told me I looked awesome. George also praised me up, when I was alone that is. He said "I told you I have plans for you." Got home around 8.30pm and then had a reasonably early night. Monday morning I trained with George, chest and bis, and during training I had one lady who is a trainer there come up to me and congratulate me on my magazine article. She said "wow, you have lost more weight and look fantastic, but you looked great there too." She wished me luck for the comp and so forth. Then I practised my routine after training and there was that trainer (the one who had said I was looking good once before) in there doing some boxing with a girl. He asked me how long to go and so forth, he also asked me how much weight I'd lost. He must have thought I was looking skinny. He told me I looked good anyway.
Got home, mum drove most of the way which was nice of her, and had to walk and shop and cook. Now today I woke up at 3am after going to bed after 11pm. Durathon better be working today!! Ok, now it's time to head to the gym...raining out so couldn't walk there :(
posted by Sue Gilman at 10:37 AM
Saturday, March 23, 2002
Where do I start? At the beginning I suppose.
Trip down was uneventful, was great having mum and Frank to help me drive some of the way. It took forever to get through the city, it was peak hour. Got to Helen's place and tried on my 3 posing suits!!! They are all great!! Then we went to the hotel, then to the casino. Had dinner there (me just grilled fish and lettuce/cucumber), and played some games. Home around 11.30ish, really tired. Slept until 8am, went walking into town, bought my Starbucks coffee, and then spent an hour on the net. George was a real sweetheart today! Said I was looking great, "looking sharp" in his words, twice he told me that actually. Then after that I had a lesson with Tondra for routine. I changed into my posing suit and actually did my routine in my gstring!!! I got up on the table for George and he was impressed, said my legs were coming down and my abs were looking good. He liked my suits and he liked my routine.
posted by Sue Gilman at 8:39 PM
Wednesday, March 20, 2002
Yesterday I was back to feeling my old happy self again. Today has been the same, although not enough sleep the last 2 nights and feel my eyes starting to droop a bit. My mind is still firing though, go the Durathon :)

Yesterday I walked to the gym in the morning, trained chest, Vince spotted me for all my exercises so it was good. In the evening I walked again to the gym and trained biceps. I couldn't go heavy as usual as I am having real problems with my left forearm. It started off hurting during bicep curls, weeks ago, maybe even more, and now, with almost every upper body exercise it is hurting me. So I did George's "special treatment" for injuries last night. Run hot water over it then rub olive oil into it and cover it right away to keep the heat in. It actually feels better, and I will continue to do it each night I think.
Oh good news - was talking to my sister on the phone, and she is considering joining a gym! She has been on Weight Watchers :( for awhile, and I suggested to her she try the Body For Life program. I said "let me train you, let me train you!!!" She sounded keen so I hope it eventuates. My sis has 5 kids, and has never been very active. Apart from running around stupid after them :)

Mum was real proud of seeing me in the magazine :) It's funny you know, even looking at the pictures in that article, I feel that I was so much bigger then!! I said to Mike this morning, "I feel little". He keeps telling me I have no butt left. I practised my routine in front of Vince this morning, first time in front of anyone, and he was pretty impressed. He told me on the way home that "my legs were coming up. I could tell even under your baggy pants your butt looks rounder."
I got a really nice email from a lady from the L&S Board who has competed. She gave me lots of moral support and some tips. Even her phone number if I want to chat. So nice of her.

101.3lbs my scale told me this morning, although they have been playing up. I do feel like it's starting to happen though :) Oh, I went off the pill too. So it will be interesting to see what effect that has on me - bodywise and mentally!!
posted by Sue Gilman at 8:16 PM

Tuesday, March 19, 2002
Ok, today I feel better, mentally, but i still feel the carbs I've eaten, they've gone straight to my butt!! It's true everybody, you CAN feel it, even if it is just bloat, I feel puffy in places I don't need it. My upper body - shoulders and arms, wow, they look fantastic if I must say so myself :)) but it stops at the waist.
Today I was a bit slow waking up, I trained (without walking first which was great!) legs. I went as hard as I could without going overboard, still doing 15 reps. I think I hurt my back on squats, we'll see how I pull up tomorrow.
Then I went through my routine a couple of times without music and drove home and rushed to be at work by 9am. Got a whole lot done at work today, so hopefully I'll be able to spend some time tomorrow chatting with my long lost buddies on Yahoo Messenger and email. (Steve, so pleased you are back, I really miss you when you are not around!! It's just not the same!)
I am getting through the day fine with my food intake, and can tell I will not have the munchies tonight. It's funny, you just know.
Vince went to a Pro BB Show in Melbourne last weekend, it pissed me off I wasn't down there for it, but anyway, i asked him to buy me a protein bar at the expo thingy they have. He bought me a whole box :) Designer Protein - haven't tried them before. He has been so good to me - he's always there for me to talk to when I need him, he's been through it so he knows what I'm going through. I should be getting my pre-release copy of the magazine I'm in tomorrow :) Oh, I already said that didn't I, yesterday? Told you I was going a little crazy.
Tonight I actually finished all my training by 6.30pm - amazing. So, I've done dinner, and now I am going to get groceries and cook up some more food for later in the week. I seem to live at the grocery store - when I'm not training that is :)
I have gotten so much email from Lean & Strongers about my photos...it was all great, except for a couple. There are always a couple! Anyway I am trying to reply to all the email I got but I am a bit snowed under but I hope to catch up soon.
As you can probably tell from my blog, I am feeling more buoyant tonight. Hoping it keeps up :)
posted by Sue Gilman at 12:49 AM
Monday, March 18, 2002
Well I totally am hating every minute of this torture lately! I feel I've totally blown it, and I decided to give up again. Mike talked me back into finishing out the 3 weeks. So did Vince. I had a long talk with him today. I actually took a "sickie" from work today, as I was feeling so down - I slept through my alarm and didn't get up until 9.30am. I feel like shit, all I want to do is EAT something that satisfies me. I'm just losing the plot totally, every minute of the day seems a struggle now. I am honestly in the position now where I would rather give up, I just don't have the strength to keep going. Next time I do this I will take the last 4 weeks off work, or at least just work half days. It's just too hard. Takes too much out of you. Well I won't go into details, I really can't be bothered at this stage.
Oh, also I got a text message from Tondra to say my magazine article turned out great, and also Wayne said he saw it and said it was good. Now *I* wanna see it!
posted by Sue Gilman at 2:37 AM
Saturday, March 16, 2002
Hey everyone reading. Today I feel really crappy :( Let me tell you how my day went.
I got up at 9am, checked email, then went into town for my tanning session. I then went straight to gym and trained chest and biceps, and extras, including extra lunges. I also practised my routine in the aerobic room without music. I practised my posing in the ladies gym while there was nobody in there, and some guy came in from the mixed gym and interrupted me, asking me who was teaching me and how my comp prep was going etc. I really hate it when I get interrupted during my workouts. So, then I left, 2 hours I was in there for, went home, ate my egg whites and rice, then an hour later ate my chicken and salad for lunch. I caught up on laundry and email, then went for a walk at 3.30pm. Had a great walk, nice and strong, really motivated. Called in to mum's on the way home, and she was like "OMG look at your muscles, I've never seen them look like that before!" I guess because I had trained my arms that morning. Oh, sidenote, one of the girls at work actually asked me how my training was going the other day! She said "You are looking good anyway!". It's funny 'cause nobody at work has mentioned my weight loss or comp or anything.
Then I walked home, and it was almost 6pm and I was TIRED, hungry etc. I knew I had to walk again that night and that thought weighed heavy. My legs were dead (from my leg workout the day before and all the walking and extra extras!). I also started feeling the munchies coming on. I started on the sugar free candies. Mike came home and we talked about going out to the Club with my mum and Frank (it was his birthday). I felt tired, like I needed to sleep, but I said that I could feel the munchies coming on so it would be good for me to get out of the house. So, I went for my 2nd walk - it was a SLOW one!! Not very convincing but I needed to do it for my mind. Got home, showered etc, and were at the club by 8.45pm. We stayed until 10.30pm and both of us by this stage were sleeping on our feet! Came home, and yep, before bed I started eating oatmeal. I was searching the cupboards for something I could have, I started with a lettuce salad and balsamic vinegar. This didn't satisfy me - as if it would!! So, I found oatmeal, and a strawberry syrup - yep, syrup, full of sugar. Smothered my oatmeal in it. Had about 3 bowls. Now I only have me to blame if I don't make it. I feel like crap today, i got on the scale, silly me, I should know better. 105lb. Hmmm. Today I have a shit load of training to do and my body doesn't need it. I am considering taking a rest - in fact, I will not train my hammies today because they are STILL pretty sore and tight. So I'll do shoulders, and practise my routine, and I guess I'll do the walking. That will be my rest HAHA. All I feel like doing is sitting here bumming on the computer talking to people. Plus I want more sleep. But see, now I feel extremely guilty about eating so much that I feel like I have to work all those calories off. It's that damn vicious cycle again, god I hate that.

posted by Sue Gilman at 3:49 PM
Friday, March 15, 2002
Today was a slower day at work, so I got to catch up on email :) I trained legs this morning, went hard on squats with Vince spotting me and for 4 sets of 15 now, for every leg exercise. My hammies were still so sore, it was hard work. I decided to try booking in for a massage tonight and was lucky enough to get a spot at 6pm. Oh it hurt, but it was heaven at the same time. I am meant to walk again tonight (walked after work at 4.30pm) but I think my body will do better with the rest.
I have a big day of training tomorrow and with 2 nights of not much sleep I just feel pretty damn tired - but good at the same time.
I showed Vince my pullups this morning - I did four, he was pretty impressed. Might take the camera in one day and see if I can get a good back shot.
Ok well I think I might retire for the night :)
Zach, too tired to take a pic tonight, hope to tomorrow.
posted by Sue Gilman at 1:53 AM
Thursday, March 14, 2002
Feeling a little on the tired side all afternoon, had a little nap around 4.30pm for an hour, that was well needed. I decided to postpone tonight's leg workout to tomorrow - my hamstrings are too sore!! I don't know why but I can hardly straighten them and it hurts to walk. I am so stiff! I guess it was because after I trained them with George on Tuesday, I hopped in the car and sat for 7 hours while driving home.
Saw my sister the other day for the first time in a month or so and she was like "wow, look at your muscles!" She also said my face looked really different because of the weight I'd lost. It's funny, nobody at work has said anything about my weight loss or my comp!! It's like they are afraid to mention it! Suits me, I prefer to be a quiet achiever. My mum told Mike how skinny I looked too. I don't want to be skinny though, want to be lean and muscular :)
Ok, well big day ahead tomorrow and lots of sleep to catch up on. If anyone reading this has sent me email, I will be doing my best to get to it either tomorrow or over the weekend :) I know you'll understand!
posted by Sue Gilman at 3:01 AM
Wednesday, March 13, 2002
Had a great day yesterday, energy was fantastic and achieved a lot. This morning I got up at 3am!! I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep, but I had lots of email to answer so thought I may as well be up and doing something productive. I had so many nice emails about my latest photos!!
This morning I walked to gym (it's getting colder and darker in the mornings now) and trained triceps and abs. Last night Vince drove me home after my workout and he gave me a little talking to about me wanting to quit. He told me to forget about the other competitors and concentrate on myself. See, to me they all looked fantastic, much harder, and more ready than me. He said the main thing for me this contest is to get out there and do my best, then the next comp I do, improve on the last and just keep improving every time.
Anyway, had a great back workout yesterday morning - I have been doing full pullups - only a few at a time but last time I tried, there was no way!! I guess it's all the weight I've lost!


posted by Sue Gilman at 8:49 PM

Tuesday, March 12, 2002
I am at work, trying to get a lot of stuff done in a hurry! Got a bit to catch up on but have achieved a lot so far!
Yesterday was a far better one for me. I woke early, so walked at 6am. I then trained with George at 9am, and he gave me a big hug and kiss hello when I walked in. I trained hamstrings and shoulders. Hamstrings have gone up to 12 reps for each set, and when I do legs, they will all be 15 rep sets. Training has now been increased to 6 days per week. I am still walking 2 x day, and now I am also practising my routine and posing. So, full on, not a spare 5 mins!
Anyway, George looked at me after I was done training, said "You look better today, your abs coming out better and your legs, they are coming up good". He said "I'm glad I upset you, see, all the stress make you lose it!" . What I did tell him was that don't like those kind of negative comments, I do much better with positive encouragement. He did seem to understand and was genuinely sorry for upsetting me. He then went through my diet again, said to stay on the same, and to call him at the end of the week.
Anyway, so after that I had a few mins before Mike was to pick me up, so I went in and decided to go through my routine. Just as I was finishing, one of the PT's walked in. He apologized for interrupting, and then asked me if I was competing. I said yes, in four weeks. He asked if I was "competition ready" - I said "I hope to improve dramatically in the next 4 weeks!!" He said "Well, sorry to put forward my opinion, but I think you look GREAT!!!" So, that was really really nice to hear, 'cause I know he has seen me out in the gym working out. On my way out George baby kissed me and hugged me and told me to call him for anything if I needed him.
We had an uneventful trip home, thankfully, and arrived around 5pm. Was nice to get home and see my pussy cat :) He missed us. Mum made him fat while we were gone!!
Then I went for my 2nd walk of the day. Then I read some email, then went to the gym for my extras, at 7.30pm.
Had a late night last night.
This morning I walked to gym, and did my entire back workout. Good, now tonight I just have extras and a walk. I also went through my routine about 5 times this morning.
I weighed this morning - 102.6lbs. Body fat 12.2%.
posted by Sue Gilman at 4:28 PM
Sunday, March 10, 2002
24 hours in the bodybuilding game is a long time. I went through hell and back today. I was ready to quit. I had it all figured out in my head. I wanted this NO MORE. To cut a long story short George talked me into going home and getting my gear and training. He talked me into getting my mind back to competing in April, and that I COULD do it. He said not to take it to heart, and that I look great, have beautiful symmetry, and will do very well. He says that in the last few weeks my thighs will get the definition needed and that I will look great on the day. I went back to the hotel, was still really depressed and not into it, but I struggled on, and trained with George when I got back. I did feel better after training. Then I had my routine training with Tondra, and I talked to her for a while. Anyway, so I will keep going, but I'm still nowhere near convinced, at all. I said to Tondra, that I will not get up on stage if I'm not 100% confident in myself, and she said fair enough, but give it the 4 weeks, I'm this close now.
George told me he liked my routine best of all, and he gave me a big hug after my training session. He then got out a mirror and brought it into the posing room and told me to take my gear off so he could show me that I looked good. He made me do a back double bicep and showed me my butt and legs in the mirror. It did actually look pretty good, but the lighting wasn't as bright as it will be. Anyway, I will just do my best for the next 4 weeks and see what happens. I have explained to Mike that I won't get up there unless I feel comfortable, he still doesn't really understand, which shits me, it makes me feel alone.
Ok well I am so tired (didn't sleep well), so I am going to go home, shower, rest and then go to see the posing suit lady. I hope everyone else is having a better time than me :) Wayne told me that everyone goes throught the "3 week depression" and not to be concerned, and that from his experience, I will make it. I can't tell if people are just trying to be nice, or what.
posted by Sue Gilman at 6:48 PM
Saturday, March 09, 2002
It's almost 5pm here, I just finished my hour of routine training with Tondra and my session with George (legs/triceps...ouch). I feel much better about the routine...we went through it and I pretty much got it within the hour. Although that is with Tondra beside me, however, it was surprising how it all came together really. We learned little bits at a time and just kept adding on. I love the routine. We are going to get together tomorrow too, for another hour.
I went shopping today, and bought a pair of size 6 pants in Sportsgirl!!! Usually I would take a 10, in my fat days. Size 6 is the smallest size you can get here in Oz, some companies don't even go as low as 6, 8 is their smallest. That freaked me out, because, the thing is, my thighs still have a lot of excess baggage happening :( I can be a 6, but man, my thighs are flabby! I showed Tondra what I meant, and she said "yeah - did you used to be really overweight?" I'm like, "no, the most I have ever weighed is about 125lb". So, see, she agreed with me that my thighs were flabby :( I said to her "there is NO WAY i am getting up on stage with my thighs like this!!" She laughed and said "you should be right". That didn't really make me feel much better :( She says "show George, see what he says". So, I pulled up my shorts before I was about to do squats, and said "George, see?" He grabs my thigh fat and goes "don't cheat on the diet, walk two hours per day and you will be ok." It's so annoying, because my upper body is so lean, yet I carry these flabby bits :(
Oh I got my photos!!! Some of them are awesome. One in particular I love. Some weren't so good, but that's usual. I was really happy with them. I hope to be able to do some more with him soon. He said he usually considers the first lot "test" shots. Where he gets the location, lighting and position right, then goes from there for the next ones.
It's a gorgeous day out. I am feeling pretty good right now, I hope to feel this good when I get home so I can be a good wife and go to the movies with Mike :)
Posing will be interesting...will be interesting to see how some of the other girls are looking. It's hard not to compare yourself when you look at them. This other girl Louise was practising her routine while I was doing mine, and she told me I looked fantastic which was really nice of her.
I have an appointment with Helen, the posing suit lady tomorrow afternoon, I'm training at 9am, then routine training with Tondra at 10.30am. Another pretty full-on day. It is really good coming down here because it gets me all fired up again and keen to do well. Although, I'm still worried I won't make it, 'cause like I said, no matter how much effort and expense I have gone to, if my thighs are fat, I am not getting up under those bright lights. I'll just work harder and longer for the next one in August.
posted by Sue Gilman at 10:02 PM
Yesterday was a fun day, but you might be surprised to hear how stressful it still was! I had my hair done, and it was nothing like what I wanted. Obviously a communication breakdown there. When she was done, I was really quite disappointed - I wanted something really sexy and wild and she gave me something sweet and pretty. It still looked nice, but it wasn't the look I was wanting to achieve. So, I then had my makeup done, and Sinead did a fantastic job with this. I told her I wasn't happy with my hair and she said she would speak with Brigid and get her to fix it up a bit for me, even though she couldn't make it curlier, she could make it "sexier". So, she teased it all up and made it really BIG, like a bardot style kind of do...this was much nicer, even though it was still straight. Still don't know what to do for the show now, whethere to try again for the curlier wavy wild look or go with what I just had.
Photos went great :)

Today I have a big day ahead. I have walked in to the city from the hotel, and want to go to a really cool shop to buy a couple more jackets, but it doesn't open until 11am. I also would love to put my photos in to be printed - I'm so impatient. Then I have to walk back, cook some lunch, then get to the gym by 2pm to go through my routine with Tondra. Then training at 3pm, then posing at 6pm. Big day. Mike wants to see a movie tonight, I'd like to but i have a feeling I will be a vegetable by night time :)
I am still having fears about not making it. Particulary when I get really tired and drained I feel like I'm just not going to get there as I have too much to accomplish and the time is just flying by. I feel great in the mornings, but by the time my energy is all used up I'm pretty useless :)
posted by Sue Gilman at 3:46 PM

Friday, March 08, 2002
Well I have to say I am feeling very much better this morning! It's 9.30am and I am in Acland Street St Kilda, drinking black coffee (it's not offensive to call it that here in Oz), and waiting for my 10am appointment. It is a gorgeous day for photos :) I trained with George yesterday, alone, so didn't get much rest between sets. He put his hands on my shoulders before we started and says "What happen girl, you shrinking or something?!" He asked how my diet was going and I said that is was going ok, although I struggled at times." He said "that's good, you don't look like you cheated." I put my bikini and heels on after the session and he put me through my poses to check me out. He said "your legs looks better. You are coming down. Good. You look better than last time I see you. I see you again on Tuesday and I decide then whether we change your diet." So that was a relief. When I got back to the hotel I was starving so I ate my egg whites and salad (had to have my chicken for BREAKFAST in the car!) and then took a very much needed nap for an hour. Then I got up and went walking, it had turned into a beautiful evening, so I walked into the city to the Yarra river where they were holding the ski tournament, and where Mike was. I didn't catch up with them there, so I just walked back - a good hour 15 min walk. The others went out for dinner while I cooked up my chicken and veg and had a quiet night. We were in bed by 10am, and up at 7am. Great sleep.
Today is just for me :) Hair done, make-up done, photos done. Total pampering :) And then tonight we are going to go to the Crown Casino, another favourite place of mine :)
Then tomorrow will be a big day of training/routine/posing.
posted by Sue Gilman at 2:44 PM
Thursday, March 07, 2002
Not a good start to the weekend I must say. In fact it was terrible!!! We left, in Mike's work car, at 6pm last night, all psyched up for our 6 hour drive to Melbourne. After an hour the temperature gauge light flicked on. After another hour Mike thought he better take a look. As it turned out, water was gushing out everywhere - he said it had blown a head gasket. We were stranded in a little dinky town called Sea Lake, 2 hours from home, 4 hours from Melbourne. We called the RACV, they had nothing to tow anybody with and also, since I didn't have MY car, we weren't covered and it would cost us a fortune. They suggested we call RACV Mildura and get someone to drive to us and tow us home. Yeah right. Sit there and wait for 2 hours, then get towed home for another 2??? Mike said he thought we may be able to drive back to the next town - 1 hour away, and get a tow from there. He just kept filling the car up with water and we just drove and hoped for the best. We got to Ouyen, then decided to keep driving home. The best thing was we made it, without extra expense of getting a tow, the worst thing was it was 10.30pm at night and we still had a 6 hour drive to Melbourne!! We had to go that night as Mike wanted to see his buddies ski in the Moomba waterski tournament at 9am the next morning. I had to go because I had so much to do, buy my fabrics, and train and such. Friday was the only day I had to shop for fabric. So, we unpacked one car, loaded up the other, and drove to Melbourne. We had to stop numerous times on the way to sleep, it was pure TORTURE. We didn't get in until 9am. Also, I decided I had better call the hotel to tell them we would be arriving late, at about 3.30am. I was told by them that there was no booking for us that night!! (originally that was true but I changed the booking weeks ago). Then, he said that they no longer had 24 hour reception, so even if they did have a room we couldn't check in until 7am when they opened. You think I wasn't FUMING by this stage!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway...we got here, through peak hour traffic, and checked in at 9am. Then they gave us a room with 2 single beds. We asked to change. Mike went straight to the Moomba tournament and I tried to sleep but no such luck and ended up taking a shower and driving all around town looking at fabrics. I bought 2 different ones, the red croc on black (shiny stretch lycra) for night time, and a cornflower blue with little silver dots for the day time. I really wanted something a lighter blue but they didn't have anything. I went out to this other place that has sequins, beads, trimmings, diamontes etc...and wished I had have bought plain silver fabric and prettied it up with some of those things. I wish I had more time to do these things :( Oh well, the stuff I did get will look good. I want to get some diamontes or crystals sewn on too.
I train at 3pm today, I parked under the gym and just went up to say hi to George. He looked me over, didn't say too much yet, just that he would look at me later today and Sunday. One of the girls he was training said to me that I looked fantastic and trimmer and leaner than when she saw me last. I said to George, "so, can I make it still?" He said "we still got 4 weeks." (Like it was all the time in the world or something!!)
So, that's my day so far. It can only get better. At least it is not raining.
posted by Sue Gilman at 6:46 PM
Wednesday, March 06, 2002
Well, I didn't get to go for my walk last night. I should never leave it so late, I should always go on the way to the gym or right after as I never feel like it when it gets late. I had so much to get done though - I got everything else out of the way so I didn't feel too bad about it. You know what I did though, I started munching on sugar free candy, and there is something about it being sugar-free that makes you think it is ok to eat. Well, there is a warning right there on the pack - "excessive consumption may have a laxative effect". Yep. It sure did. I was up at 2am with terrible pains in the stomach. So much so that I turned my alarm off because I didn't think I would be able to walk in the morning. I was right, I would have been so uncomfortable. Anyway, feeling better now thankfully and have learned my lesson :)
So, I will only get one walk in today too. Bummer. Still, gotta concentrate more on the diet.
I Ok, well next time I write will be from Melbourne. I am kind of nervous about seeing George and hearing what he has to say with only 4 weeks left. WOW, 4 weeks, I still don't believe I am doing this!!! I still haven't even tried my routine yet!! That is starting to bother me. I meet with Tondra on Sunday to go through it, but then I'll have to practise like a crazy woman. Last thing I want is for my mind to go blank when it is my turn to perform!!

posted by Sue Gilman at 7:10 PM
Tuesday, March 05, 2002
I have been SO busy lately, it is hard to keep up with everything. 2 hours less per day at work sure makes work a lot busier :) Today I haven't stopped. I feel like I am neglecting my friends and family, I really hope they can understand all that I am going through and why I really need to focus on this and this alone right now.
I have a ton of stuff to do tonight - in addition to a shoulder workout and a walk, I have to pack for the trip to Melbourne, cook all my food and pack all my food for the trip, water the garden, clean the house, buy groceries, cook dinner, answer my email, apply some tan for my pictures, etc etc. Ok, you see what I mean?
I should practise my poses too, haven't done that in a little while.

I got some of the sandills photos back, there were only about 5 that were good. But the best ones will come later, they had to be sent away. One day i will scan them....yeah...one day when I get a spare 10 mins!
I started tanning in the solarium last week too, will do that a couple of times per week up until the show.
Oh, I broke 104lbs on the scale this morning!! 103.8lb :)
I got the fabric samples yesterday in the mail - I really liked one of the red ones. It's red on black, shiny stretch lycra, in crocodile skin. The blue ones weren't what I wanted.

posted by Sue Gilman at 8:18 PM

Monday, March 04, 2002
One thing I forgot that I wanted to speak about...I am getting a bit of email from friends and acquaintences after having read my journal, say they are worried about me and how I am feeling tired and that they are concerned I'm not eating enough, or enough carbs. I really appreciate that so many people, even people I don't know personally, have that concern for me. I do want to explain, however, why you shouldn't be *too* worried :)
This is a very strict competition diet, designed to get me into the best possible shape in 12 weeks. It is low in carbohydrates and low in calories for that reason. I would not advise anyone to be on a diet like this for any other reason. When I finish the comp, I definitely won't be eating like this. It is natural for the amount of training that I am doing, combined with this diet, for me to feel a little tired and fatigued from time to time. The Durathon I am taking is helping me no end - I am certain of that. It would be a hundred times worse if it weren't for my magic herb! So, there you go :) I am doing fine, but thank you everyone who wrote me with your concerns, I appreciate your support and caring a great deal.
posted by Sue Gilman at 7:47 PM
Yesterday was interesting...I received the following email from my boss which really had me upset for a few hours:
Sue,
Don't know if you received my previous message so I will try again.
I have discussed your request with Janet and she has raised two issues that we cannot ignore.
Firstly even though you are working shorter hours you must take a lunch break, and secondly
the award is very specific in respect to leave without pay in that it can only be granted where all available leave with pay entitlements, other than sick leave, have been utilised. This means that the two hours each day must be taken off either RDO's or Annual Leave.
Your request for leave in the first week in April places me in an unenviable position. Not all that long ago a plan was agreed to by all in the 'front' office that would ensure maximum manning levels at critical times. Certain periods were regarded as 'no go' for leave, etc. Now we have the position where you are requesting leave during one of these critical periods. Because of the 'principal' we have put in place I feel half inclined to reject your request as it will only create a precedent for the future. Having allowed one break in an established process it will be very hard to not allow others and this being the case we might as well not have the process.
I would appreciate it if you could reconsider your request.

My response back to him was this:
Originally the competition was dated 13 April, so there would have been no real problem. Ideally competitors take up to a month off prior to a competition, however, two weeks is the minimum my trainer would like. I explained to him (as I knew there is a billing run close to it) that I would only be able to come down a week prior. He agreed that would be ok. Now, they have put the competition back 1 week, of course to my dismay. It is almost impossible for me to not have this week off. It is only because of this that I am asking for it. I feel guilty as hell having to ask for this week off.

I am sure nobody knows what goes into preparation for such a competition. At present this is my day:

5am Get up, walk to the gym (50 mins)
6am Train in the gym, home by 7.15, have breakfast, make sure i have all my food prepared for the day. Try to get to work by 8.

8-5 work
5.30pm Walk to the gym
6.15pm- 7.30pm Train
8pm Prepare dinner, all my meals for the next day, grocery shop, clean, look after my cat and my husband, etc etc.
9.30pm Dead tired, go to bed.

Now, in addition to this, I have to practice posing, and my routine up to an hour each day.

I am dieting at present, so my energy levels aren't great, and it takes it's toll. That is the reason, and the fact that I have to fit so much into a day, that I requested shortening my hours.

In the final weeks before a comp, I have to dehydrate my body (which can be dangerous if not supervised), apply about 5 coats of instant tan over 2 days, have fittings for costumes, etc etc, and still train, walk and pose. This is why I say it is near impossible and I would not ask if there were an alternative.

Can you please reconsider my request, and please advise why there is now a problem, yet before there wasn't.

Thanks
Sue

I went into his office after lunch and he thanked me for letting him know the details. He then had no problem with me taking the time off and commented "Gee, you are putting yourself through a lot of trouble!". He also asked me if my co-workers knew about it, and how much effort I was putting in. I said probably not, and that I really like to keep it to myself, I don't mind if they ask, but I'd rather not be subjected to the "smart-ass" comments and negativity that no doubt some would feel the need to contribute. All in fun of course, but I just rather not have to deal with that - to me this is serious, and I really need to be focussed. He understood.

I had a great leg workout last night, even though my energy levels were almost zero after work, I still pushed hard.

posted by Sue Gilman at 5:01 PM

Sunday, March 03, 2002
Today was nice and relaxing. Got up at 6.30am, but went back to bed for awhile before going for a walk at about 10.30am. It was a gorgeous day out so nice for walking. I got really hungry just before noon, so ate my lunch plus my apple all in one go! But that was ok. Then I went grocery shopping, my husband wanted me to buy him some protein bars to take for ski tournaments so I spend $20 on 5 bars. That's how expensive they are here, and that's the Aussie ones! The US ones ie. Myoplex Low carb cost about $7!! As if I'd be buying any of them. Give me 3 dozen eggs anyday! Anyway, i was drooling over the protein bars. :( Then I went shopping for some new lingerie to have for my pictures this weekend, then I went to a fabric shop and bought a few different bits of fabric to match my lilac lingerie, for draping/colour in the photos. I don't really know what the photographer has in mind yet.
iI walked again tonight, great walk, had my headphones with me again, that CD really gets me going! It's great, I should use it more often.
Mike was cuddling me in bed this morning and he said "You are so skinny, there is nothing of you".
Time for bed now, was watching a movie but it's not that riveting so will get my much needed sleep instead.
posted by Sue Gilman at 2:40 AM
Saturday, March 02, 2002
Very happy with today's effort. Here is what I ate: 4 egg whites, 2 cups coffee, 4 egg whites, 250g frozen spinach (cooked of course!), 250g (raw weight) chicken fillet, large salad (lettuce, cucumber, mushroom, green pepper) with dressing of balsamic vinegar, lemon juice and Splenda. Now I am eating a small pack of sugar free gummy things (Jols) - total calories for the pack is just 30, and no sugar. Blackcurrant flavor.
Today I was trying to make up for yesterday's bad day. I probably shouldn't be doing that but I feel so damn guilty for overeating last night. Off to bed now.
posted by Sue Gilman at 2:52 AM
Friday, March 01, 2002
Back from the gym, glad that's over, now I will take a little nap :) I did see a girl in there that I went to school with, and who I haven't seen for a few months. We had a bit of a chat and then later she said to me, "You are looking great, obviously you are keeping up with your training?" So I told her about my competition. She was all enthusiastic and said she couldn't believe how much I'd changed since she had seen me last, she said, you looked good before but I can't believe the definition you have now. She said "I looked up from what I was doing before and saw you and though "My God, what's she been doing?!". I'm like "really? because sometimes I don't notice because I see myself all the time" She said I looked wonderful and that she wouldn't say it if she didn't mean it. So, that was cool, I really needed it today.
I have decided to place more of an emphasis now on my diet rather than training. If I don't feel up to it I'm not going to push myself so hard in the gym, but really concentrate on keeping with the diet 100%. I figure all the hard work has been done in the gym, now it is time for the diet to show all that hard work!

Ok, time for some more sleep.
posted by Sue Gilman at 7:15 PM

The shortened hours thing is ok, so that is good news. This is so hard at the moment! I just called George because I am having terrible cravings and just want to eat everything in the house (which isn't much but anything will do at this point!) and particularly salty things. I have been having handfuls of Butterbuds, can you imagine? Also, last night we went out for dinner, and I cooked up some veggies before I went as I knew it would be hours before we ate. I drank one glass of white wine at dinner, and I ordered an entree from the menu as I was starving and didn't want to have to wait for everyone to eat there entree's before I could eat my main course. So, I ordered rare beef salad with dressing on the side. Well, as usually happens it came out with the salad smothered in dressing :( But, the beef was awesome and a pretty decent serve. Only thing wrong with this was that I'd pre-ordered an eye fillet with green veg for main. When it came out it was huge!!! And tasted divine too. I ate it. ALL. When we got home I was craving sweets so I put some pudding mix into a glass and some vanilla protein powder and mixed it up with water.
So today the cravings are still there. So I rang George. He told me the same as always - have an apple or a pear when I am feeling like that, and also take sugar free gum with me everywhere (which I do) but DON'T CHEAT ON THE DIET!!! I told him I was craving salt and he says "Shit, don't eat salt, then I won't be able to take the water out of you." He told me one of the other girls was having trouble with salt too. I told him I was worried about not making it, so he gave me a good talking to "don't worry, you will make it just don't cheat on the diet. Don't worry about your body, so long as you don't cheat you will be fine. You don't think like that you gotta think you are the best when you step up there on stage." So, I guess I needed a big lecture like that as I was getting a bit slack and feeling sorry for myself. Good to know I'm not the only one struggling though. Anyway, so I have packed up all my pudding mixes, my Butterbuds and salty spicy things, and MRP's and am going to ship them off to mum's - out of sight out of mind.
Ok, now I am off to the gym to train back (minus upright rows since the chiropractor told me to have a week off of them).
I think I will become a hermit over the next 5 weeks. Going out where there is food is too much of a temptation. It's hard for people to understand because they don't know what it feels like. Will be hard next weekend as we will be in Melbourne with friends. I won't be going out with them for dinner, don't want to take the chance anymore.
posted by Sue Gilman at 4:37 PM
Thursday, February 28, 2002
Well I slept from 7.30pm to 9pm, got up for 3/4 hour then went right on back to bed and slept through until 5am when my alarm woke me!!! Wow, I "slept in"!!! You reckon I didn't need it? :) I felt so much better for it, until late morning anyway. I feel ok, just my head feels like it's full of cotton wool, really light-headed. And my eyes just want to close and sleep.
Tonight will be a test, I have a work social function, to a restaurant for dinner. I have pre-ordered my meal - eye fillet steak, and lots of green veg, plain steamed, no potatoes. :) Lets see what they come up with ;-)
Trained hammies this morning, and will do shoulders tonight. I worked through lunch and will leave at 4pm so I can get my training done and get ready to be out at the pub by about 7pm.
I have asked my boss (via email) if I can work shortened hours for the next 5 weeks. Instead of 8-5, I want to work 9-4pm, just to give me that extra bit of time to get all my training/posing/routine stuff in, as well as all my other day to day things. It's just getting a bit out of hand. I haven't had a response but will go see him right now because I want to start Monday.
posted by Sue Gilman at 7:11 PM
Boy this is getting hard :( I got up at 4am again, I'm only getting 6 hours sleep at the most - it's not enough. I wake up feeling fine and my morning walks and workouts are great. Tonight I am dead again :( I made a huge effort to get to the gym after work and train biceps, then I just gulped down my dinner of chicken and green veg, and now I just decided to have an extra apple. Just prior to lunch today i started feeling faint again, not dizzy like yesterday but sort of light-headed. It's the lack of sugar I'm sure. I decided to have a half cup of oatmeal instead of my tuna for my p.m. snack. I felt better immediately but it wasn't long before I felt hungry and tired again.
I'm feeling depressed and having one of those days where I feel like I'm not going to make it. I spoke to George today - booked in for next week, but he didn't really say much when I told him I was feeling really tired at night, just it was normal. There's no way I can drag myself out to walk tonight, bugger it, I'm going to go to bed before I eat the entire contents of the pantry (that's what i feel like doing!). It's only 7.30pm!!
OMG 5 more weeks of this (and probably worse!) - can I do it??????? It's times like this I have to think of the end goal and keep remembering all the hard work I've put in and not to let it slip away.
posted by Sue Gilman at 12:19 AM
Wednesday, February 27, 2002
I forgot to mention that I had a dizzy spell today, it lasted for a few minutes - luckily I was just sitting at my desk. I'm wondering if it had anything to do with the chiropractic adjustment that I had prior. Or if it's just lack of carbs! I had a massage tonight too, boy did I need it. I had a fight with Mike tonight, I yelled at him for not helping me with something I asked him to do. I guess the dieting is starting to take it's toll. I will be right, just will get to bed early tonight. Oh, and I had a Protoplex Lite MRP for dinner - it was DIVINE, like heaven!!!!! I am getting a bit (a lot!) sick of fish and chicken for dinner! So, I thought I'd just have a little change. Hopefully the carbs in it will help me for the morning workout too.
posted by Sue Gilman at 2:00 AM
Tuesday, February 26, 2002
Feeling good today, wish I felt like this at night though! I do think Zach hit it on the head in a personal email to me - it is due to the low carb diet I am on. Zach, thanks for your concern, and I agree, but I have to do as my trainer promised.

I rang the posing suit lady today, she is going to send me some fabric samples in the colours I asked for. Ice blue, and deep ruby red. 2 different suits that is.

Well the war on L&S has kept up - boy, I got so many emails about my photos - all good ones. Now I have to find a spare hour or two to write back and thank everyone for their support :)

I went to the chiropractor - he told me I had strained my infraspinatus muscle (which does actually mean something to me since I'm a trained massage therapist from way back!). Can't do anything though, he just advised me to avoid upright rows for the next week. I am still hoping to get in for a massage tonight.

I did my posing in my shoes this morning, there was only one other lady in the women's gym so it didn't bother me. I will keep doing that.
posted by Sue Gilman at 7:25 PM

Again the night time thing hit me, I am just not getting enough sleep I guess. Last night I went to bed before 10pm though. I didn't make my second walk for the day either. I trained legs, and boy that was tough, I wasn't focussed at all, and didn't enjoy it, just wanted to get out of there! Glad to have it over and done with. Today is my "day off" so just walking to the gym now (5.30am) and will do step-ups and abs that I missed last night, and I'm also taking my shoes with me so I can practise some posing. Hopefully there won't be too many in the gym watching! How embarrassing.
I have a bad shoulder too...something I felt during upright rows the other day, is still causing me pain. I am hoping to get in for a massage tonight but I have to wait on a cancellation.
I posted the link to my latest pics on Lean and Strong, and boy, it started another war. Everyone loved the pics, but one woman had to bring up whether they were "appropriate" for a "family site". I warned people before looking that there was some "bare skin" and not to look if they were going to be offended (one other time someone said my pics "looked like porn to them" and that was just a g-string bathing suit!). Anyway, such is life, some people have weird ideas. There was nothing distasteful about them.

posted by Sue Gilman at 10:30 AM
Monday, February 25, 2002
Last night I felt really tired - I'm fine during the day, but when night time comes I feel pretty drained. After my training and dinner, I had to lay down, and I flaked it for an hour! Felt better after that rest though. Then i went out for my second walk and took my new CD with me - was great, some good Aussie rock music to walk to :) I actually walked in the dark last night. No different to morning I guess, is always dark at 5am :)
I kind of cheated last night :( I was dying for a sugar fix, so I had all these half packets of Myoplex Lite hanging around in the cupboard, so I mixed a couple up in a glass with a little water. Was surprising how good they tasted all lumpy and mixed with water! I was really annoyed that I cheated though, so today I am having saving my apple to have as an after dinner sweet snack.

My Durathon sales have really been taking off, it's great! Wayne sent me some of the competition posters (the comp I am entering) with my last order of Durathon - I took one to the gym this morning, for them to display, along with 2 Durathon promotional posters with my details on them :) Maybe it will drum up some business with the locals too.

I found out I won't be getting my routine video until after next weekend :( They can't video it until Sunday. Bummer. Will only have 4 weeks left then. Tondra says it will only take a week to perfect. Glad she has confidence in me!

I have been holding off calling George...I might call him later in the week and tell him how I am doing - HUNGRY after dinner!!

I had lots of people say they liked my snappy snaps from the sandhills. I am hoping to get some proper ones back today.


posted by Sue Gilman at 5:38 PM

Sunday, February 24, 2002
This is what I have to deal with - total negativity from my mother. Here I was thinking she was interested, since she came to Melbourne with me a few months ago and watched me train etc. But then when I asked her last week if she was coming to watch me, she said no, she didn't want to. Which pretty much disappointed me, but then, I was watching a bodybuilding Figure comp on video when she turned up to walk with me last night. She screwed her nose up at the women and said "Oh, I don't think I could go and watch that...all those nude women prancing about." You think I didn't get upset over that remark??

On a brighter note...my buddy Steve plugged in my skin folds and I am down to 12.8% now!! It's starting to happen!! I feel kind of yuk and bloated this morning though, and my weight was up over 105 again.

About to change and walk to the gym, feel pretty much like I haven't had enough sleep, since I woke at 4am! It's now 5.
posted by Sue Gilman at 10:08 AM

Saturday, February 23, 2002
It was SO good yesterday and today I feel so revived, it's been a great weekend just vegging about! The photo shoot went pretty well I think. I was so glad to have Mike there with me - would have been extremely uncomfortable being there alone and trying to change clothes etc in the middle of nowhere.
The worst thing were the flies!!! Honestly in some photos I will probably be covered in flies, there was no way to keep them off. Also, sand was everywhere and in everything! Still, it is a beautiful place for photos, they should be quite effective. The digital ones my husband took can be seen at my Yahoo Photo Albums in my Briefcase (my ID is netsurferchick).

I really liked the way Amanda did my hair - it was sleek looking and straight. I'm not sure whether to go straight, or still a bit wild for my routine hair now.

I trained this morning with renewed vigour - a rest day helps! Hamstrings and shoulders, and extras. I haven't walked yet, but am going with Mum in 20 mins for my first one. Mike is in Adelaide today with his RC boats, so I will be able to walk again later around 8pm.

Starting to see more cuts coming through. Was 104.6lb on the scale this morning - broke the 105lb barrier! Although, a bit of dehydration I'm sure.

We went out for dinner after the shoot, to the Pizza Cafe at the Grand Hotel where I had a glass of wine and I had very healthy chicken shaslicks with green salad and dressing on the side. Mike sat there and ate a large Italian pizza all by himself :(
posted by Sue Gilman at 9:11 PM

Friday, February 22, 2002
Today is Saturday, and having photos done tonight. Just been in town shopping for some sarong material for the photos. I haven't had any water to drink today so feeling pretty weird in the head! I get my hair done in an hour. Anyway, it has been the BEST thing to have all day to do my stuff and NO training!! This is the first day I have had totally off in months. That is no walking either. I think it will do me the world of good actually. I am not eating any fruit or veg today either (water content) so have had 2 eggs whites/2 tbsp rice, chicken/2tbsp rice, and will have that again before I go out there for pics. Then will have a regular dinner. And tomorrow it's back to the grind of training! I should be all fired up after a big rest. I want to take the digital camera out too so Mike can take a couple of pics so I can have them immediately :) That's my impatient nature showing out!
I haven't put on any wipe on tan, but a few coats of regular self tanner over the last couple of days, so I won't have a really dark tan, just a medium one. I hope that it shows in the pics anyway.
I had this idea for a photo on the sandhills. Wearing a short black see through chemise and thong (thong is not see through!), sitting on the sand, with a red rose (fake one) somewhere on the sand dune (for colour and something a bit different) with me looking down at the rose.

I trained chest last night, and boy, I was so drained. I literally had to drag my ass out the door last night to walk to the gym. I was very slow, due to lead legs from the workout the day prior! Still I had it in my mind that today I had off so I was determined to give it everything and not wuss out. So, I trained with Vince, who pushed me harder than I'd normally train. When I was doing pullovers, his buddy Michael said to me, "Gee, if you keep up that walking you are gonna have better abs than me!" (He doesn't have abs, he was joking.) Then he asked what size my waist was, and I said I didn't know, maybe 25inches. He was like "OMG! One of Vince's liegs measures more than that!" Vince said it was true, his thigh measures 27 inches!! Yes, he has huge legs, he's a powerlifter. Anyway, I measured this morning and it's 24 inches!! All my measurements have come down, including my shoulders which is a bummer.

Then I came home, ate dinner, and had a sweet tooth nagging me. What I did was this - it sounds gross but it worked. I ate a half package of sugar free/fat free jello pudding powder mixed with s/f f/f caramel topping!! It cured my craving and for not that many calories :)

Then I just died at about 9pm so went to bed before 10, and slept through until 7.30am. Felt great when I woke up, it's amazing what some good quality sleep can do for you.

Oh, all the shops are having summer sales...I went to Cue, and guess what? Usually I take an 8 or a 10, but even their size 6 pants were too big!! (Their sizing must be bigger than normal though). That is the smallest size they make. Size 8 is normally the smallest size over here in Oz, some companies make 6's, not many though. I am not sure what that would be equivalent to in the US.
Ok time to sign off and do some stuff :)
Hope the Dream Team have a lovely weekend :)
posted by Sue Gilman at 7:19 PM

Thursday, February 21, 2002
Well, I did go for my walk last night and it was a good strong one! My little legs were going like the clappers :) They must have felt light after my heavy leg workout! This morning I walked to gym too and felt good. Had a great bicep workout - Vince spotted me for bb curls so I could push a bit harder. He then ordered me to practice my posing in the aerobic room while he sat and watched. On the way home he said I looked better this morning than the other day when I did them for him. He said that my skin is getting thinner (which is a *good* thing!) and that I was coming up really well. So it's good to hear these comments as you just don't see them yourself sometimes. Although I can see some changes happening for sure. I was 105lb on the scale this morning too. I guess some of that has to do with a bit of dehydration.
Tonight I am walking to the gym again, then will do a chest workout.

Joe was asking me about the testimonials I have received from people about Durathon. Here is an excerpt from one:

I am so happy this morning....My skirt is getting quite loose. I took a durathon in the afternoon yesterday and it was great for my weights session last night. I had really good energy. Jonas commented last night that I am really losing weight. I am sooo stoked that it is beginning to happen and I think the Durathon went a long way to help.....thanks a heap,....
Anne (Sydney)

posted by Sue Gilman at 1:59 PM

Got home from work and did not feel like training legs! I really have to get psyched up for legs, so I had a bit of a lay down while I cooked my fish that I was having for dinner. I ate 2 little pieces before i went to gym and this helped with some energy. Had a great leg workout, feel I should be able to increase my 330lb on the leg press next time. I do these after extensions, squats and alternate leg press - wonder what weight I could do if I did them first??
Michael (who is going to compete in October and also going to be training with George), came into the women's section where I was training and asked me how it was all going. He also said the Durathon was great!! Said when they run out he'll be getting some more for sure. He's been working really long hours and said his energy levels have been great. I also got an email from a lady in Sydney who I have been conversing with regarding BFL stuff and so forth - she bought some Durathon about 3 weeks ago and is really rapt with the results she is getting, both energy wise and weight loss. I was so happy for her (Anne, if you are reading this!!) :)
Anyway, Michael told me I had improved a lot even since he last saw me (about 2 weeks ago). Said my upper body was looking fuller and the cuts were starting to come through really well.
I really don't feel like doing another walk tonight!! I have a lot to do before bed so I had better get moving!

posted by Sue Gilman at 12:53 AM
Wednesday, February 20, 2002
Well it wasn't so "easy" cutting my carbs for the second day in a row, so I ended up eating 2 small apples over the course of the day. And heaps of veggies. I asked George on the weekend if I could eat as many green veggies as I wanted and he said no!!! Tondra was there and she said "it's best not to ask!"

I was pretty tired last night, since I woke up at 4.30am that morning, so by 8.30pm I was ready for bed! I didn't go to bed until 9.30pm though, and slept pretty much right through to 5.30am when I got up to walk to the gym. Worked tris this morning - my upper body is really looking good, lower body is slowly getting there!
105.2lbs on the scale this morning!!!
That's 10 lbs or so down since I started this Challenge. Happy with that!
Think I found a hair-do that I like for my pre-judging too. It's all up, smooth at the front but then piled up messy on top and pinned. Then I want to have it long and sexy for my American Woman routine :)

I am going to do a bit of a dehydrate over the next couple of days, for the photo shoot on Saturday evening. We are going to the Sandhills for some workout gear shots for the Kelmix catalogue. I will also get some others done but haven't thought about what I want yet. No time to think!!
Mike is coming with me, I don't feel like being out in the middle of nowhere with a stranger taking photos of me.

I had my hair done last night - the works - coloured, highlighted and trimmed! Feel like a new person now.


posted by Sue Gilman at 2:55 PM

Tuesday, February 19, 2002
I started this this morning and was booted out and lost all my work :(
Anyway, back into the swing of things again. Had a good last day in Melbourne, I trained early, at 8am, which was good - trained with George, alone, and boy, no rest for the wicked! At least when he trains 2 or 3 at once you get some rest between sets!! I finished my workout in 40 mins! I then showered, changed and went walking to the fetish shoe shop for my comp shoes! It took an hour to walk there, did a little bit of shopping on the way in Chapel Street, THE street to shop in in Melbourne. It's yuppieville. It was a nice day so I really enjoyed the walking. The shop had the exact shoes, and I actually took a size 6 rather than my usual 7. I ended up buying them as they gave me 20% discount (as George's client), so were $175. At least I have them in my hot little hands now :) They really aren't so bad to walk in. They are 6 inch heels and 2 inch platforms!

I then walked all the way back to the gym, had a coffee on the way, then checked email for an hour while I waited for the cab. Was SO good to fly back rather than drive!! When I got home I walked to my gym, and did my extras that I didn't do in the morning. I must have walked 25 miles that day!!

So yesterday and today have been walking only days. I was very strict on my diet yesterday, decided to cut all carbs apart from veggies/salad for the day. Doing same today, although I did eat a small apple this morning. Tomorrow will go back to having some carbs as I start training again.

I might be doing a photo shoot on Saturday evening, at the Sandhills. Waiting for Michael to let me know for sure. I booked in to have my hair done just in case.

I have been getting some great feedback from my Durathon "clients" too, which is wonderful!

I did some posing practice in the gym this morning, Vince caught me practising then wanted me to go through them for him.
posted by Sue Gilman at 5:50 PM

Sunday, February 17, 2002
What a difference a couple of days makes. I am feeling so much better today. I am on top of things again, and ready to really get stuck into it. I had a big sleep in today which helped, but I woke up with a big headache that didn't subside after taking some paracetamol. So, I decided I would treat myself to a massage. I booked in at the City Baths, so walked from my hotel to there, which took around an hour. With a heavy backpack on I was glad to get there! I think that's what caused the headache to begin with. Not having a car here this time I've had to walk everywhere and have all my training gear with me.
The massage was the BEST massage I have ever had! Honestly I felt a million dollars after coming out of there! I then went and did a bit of shopping on my way to the train station. Trained it to Richmond (5 mins!) and then trained with George and another girl. Tondra was there too, and it was actually a really fun workout. I had a lot of energy today.
Tondra went through my routine after I'd finished training, and it is a really good one! It isn't on video yet so I still can't practise it, but she should have it to me in a week or so. I am not coming back to Melbourne for 3 weeks so I need to do a lot in that time. I will have to go visit the bikini maker lady for my posing costumes too. I still haven't worked out what to do with my hair. I like it long but it gets in the way when I'm posing.
Ok well I better sign off, catch the train back to the city and tram back to the hotel. Quiet night tonight, I am training at 8am in the morning.

posted by Sue Gilman at 12:40 AM
Friday, February 15, 2002
Well where do I start. I have been feeling very down and depressed for the last couple of days. I really am not up to going into full details but things went of the rails a bit a few days ago. I ended up flying to Melbourne, last minute decision, as there was no way, with the way I was feeling that I was up to a 6 hour drive. Plane was late, I got in with only an hour to my training session, then had to take a cab all the way to the gym, costing nearly $50. That on top of the plane fare and accommodation - this is going to be a very expensive weekend. I had to lug all my belongings up to the gym while i trained. George asked me how everything was going and I broke down...I ended up in tears, he was angry with me, and later on the next day (today) he apologized for being rude to me and had a bit of a talk with me. Said that I can call him anytime if I am having troubles because I am "his girl". So, yesterday was a very rough day and while I feel better about things today, I'm still not "up" like I have been. Tondra went through the routine briefly, and it looks good, i will spend time with her tomorrow on that. This morning I have been posing with Deborah and she feels I have the poses down pretty well. I still don't have any shoes though.
Anyway time for more torture with George, training chest and biceps today.
posted by Sue Gilman at 7:35 PM
Wednesday, February 13, 2002
Hungry :(
posted by Sue Gilman at 5:39 PM
Tuesday, February 12, 2002
I spoke to Tondra last night, she was all excited about the routine she has worked out for me. Apparently I start out straddling a chair with my back to the audience, holding a bunched up flag above my head that I open up and then drop to the floor. Or something like that. I guess I'll have to wait until Sunday to find out exactly what she means. She said George wanted lots of poses showing my back, she said he likes my back. She said a lot of women "don't have backs" but mine was "awesome" :) She asked how it was going, and I said pretty good, but was still worried I wouldn't make it. She said i had heaps of time, and that most girls don't even have abs yet. George had a word to me too, asked me if I was "looking sharp!". He also said I had heaps of time.

I found out there is no actual posing class this weekend, but it doesn't really matter because I have organized to meet with Deborah before her training session to go through the poses with her. So one on one will be much better than 2 on 14 or 15, anyway!

I slept right through last night, good sleep, feeling good now. Just walking tonight (did this morning too), it almost feels like a night off!

My scales have been giving me 3 and 4 different readings in the mornings! I always take the heaviest one. Today was 106.8lb.
posted by Sue Gilman at 6:28 PM

Well I am enjoying my little treat, sitting here having just eaten my small portion of chicken :) Now eating diet jelly in a horrible blackcurrant flavour. It didn't set right either, some bits are watery some bits taste like rubber!

I have to call Tondra tonight and see what she's up to with my routine. Got a text message from her today to say she has started the routine with the flag and the chair, and that its very sexy!

I just did a load of laundry - workout gear, so I have enough to take away with me. I really need to wash my car, but I can't be bothered!!! It is filthy too. Have been meaning to wash it for ages but it just hasn't happened!

Ok I have answered all my email, time to veg out :)
posted by Sue Gilman at 1:20 AM

Monday, February 11, 2002
I have decided to give myself a little treat tonight, and that is so long as I have a small piece of fish or chicken for dinner (like NOT a lb!!) then I will not have to go for my second walk. I think it may be a bit of a waste of time, you see, I seem to be compensating for the walk by eating more!!! I will walk twice tomorrow though, and the next day, as I don't train those days just walk. I train my back tonight.
posted by Sue Gilman at 9:30 PM
Well I got a great night's sleep last night, and back to feeling great!
I meant to say last night that I have this really weird twitch in my left tricep, it's so annoying! It is still going today!

You know, it is amazing how different I can look from first thing in the morning (when dehydrated) to before I go to bed. I can see all kinds of definition in the mornings, even in my quads :) That all changes when I drink fluids. On a similar note, it was suggested to me that I consider going off the contraceptive pill prior to the comp...am still finding out (asking around) about this. The pill makes you retain fluid, although I am on a very low dose one so not sure if it is worth playing around with.

My buddy Steve made a web page for me www.2-fit.com/suegilman especially for my article for the Women's Fitness & Sport magazine. Take a look, he has done an amazing job. Thanks Steve :)


posted by Sue Gilman at 2:52 PM

I wish it was Sunday again :( Today I feel really fatigued. I think it may be due in part to the leg workout this morning. I was fine on my walk to the gym at 5.30am and during and after my leg workout, but by late afternoon I got quite hungry and was feeling a bit light-headed. I ate an extra apple, and when I got home I went straight to the gym for my shoulder workout. After I completed that, I dragged myself out for my second walk. Really pleased I made myself go because I considered giving in to my tiredness. I ate a HUGE dinner just now. Good food but huge! The biggest piece of fish you've ever seen! Heaps of green veg, and then a half bowl of diet jello! Now I am going to take a nice warm bath and go to bed pretty soon.
posted by Sue Gilman at 1:24 AM
Sunday, February 10, 2002
For some reason I can't see that today's entry has been updated...hmmm.
I had heaps of energy on my second walk today, must have been all those extra carbs I ate last night :)
posted by Sue Gilman at 1:45 AM
Saturday, February 09, 2002
I LOVE Sundays!!!! Today I am totally vegging out doing...not much :) Lovin' it! It gives me a chance to do all my little jobs around the house, and also to do some things like watering the lawns and giving myself a face mask and stuff like that! Things that I just don't have time for during the week. My poor skin - it's very neglected :) I have my mask on now - I look very beautiful...NOT! I also have packaged up my boxes of Durathon to send to my new clients and they will all be posted out in tomorrow's mail. There may even be a little surprise in one of them (Joe) :)

I just posted a message to the Lean & Strong board, which has been a favorite message board of mine through my last Challenge and prior. They are great people and very helpful. I haven't had a lot of time to post lately but I dropped in and told them about my upcoming magazine article. I can't believe how many congratulatory replies I received, and lots of people asked if they could buy it over in the US :) Some want autographed copies...hahaha, that is too funny :) Very flattered though!

I have been for one walk today, walked around the block and to the grocery store. I am going for my next walk with my mum, at 5pm. It's such an awful day again, really windy and quite cold. For those that don't know, it is mid-summer here and we live in the "desert" where it is usually over 100 degrees at this time of year. We have had the strangest summer this year, if you can call it summer.

Another thing I have to do today is watch the bodybuilding comp video that Tondra gave me last weekend. It goes for 5 hours, so haven't had that many spare hours to play with during the week!

Oh, and another confession from last night. I stayed up late and by midnight I was starving...I actually ate some things that are NOT part of my diet. :( I ate an Aussie Bodies slice (like a kind of fruit cake thing) and ate a small chicken breast and 2 little rice cakes. I actually put Butterbuds on my rice cakes!! I must have been craving salt. Then I went to bed! I am saying to myself to treat it like it was a free meal (only I'm not allowed free meals!!), and that it won't hurt me. I really don't think it will anyway, i've been training so damn much!

Good news is I managed to sleep in until 10am today!! Feel much better for it too.

While on my walk i booked in for our Valentine's Day dinner, at the Stonegrill restaurant. I will be able to get something to fit my diet there. More later.
posted by Sue Gilman at 7:53 PM

Well I have a confession to make. I can't be bothered going for my second walk today! So I am going to treat myself to a rest :) My legs are really sore from yesterday's workout, actually feeling more "fatigued" than sore I suppose, just like lead, like they don't want to move.

I had a call from Tondra, the girl who is choreographing my routine, and she said she was working on it at that minute. She asked me what I thought about using a chair as a prop, in my routine. I like the idea of a chair, I've seen one used once before and I thought it was effective. She can't figure out exactly what to do with the flag, so she's now considering the chair instead. I suggested perhaps we drape the flag over the chair. Anyway, we will see what she comes up with. She should have a video of the routine by the end of the week. George also wanted to speak to me so he came on the line and says "Sue baby!! How are you? I hear they put you in the magazine?! Jonathon (editor) tell me a couple days ago they were going to interview you. You say good things about George?!" He asked how my diet was going, and I said it was going great and that I'd lost another kilo. He said that was excellent. I told him I was feeling a bit tired (last few days) and he said if you are really bad, you eat an apple or something like that. So that was all I needed, I immediately went to the fridge and ate some strawberries :)

I got an email from Deborah Zalewski (INBA Ms Figure Australia - Masters) and she is going to help me with my posing this weekend. We have arranged a time to meet on the Saturday. She also said that if I am coming down anytime when the posing training is not on, to let her know and she will work something out with me, maybe even video me so I can take it home. She also congratulated me on my Ironman interview.

So, nothing much else today, except I had a great training session today. I was going to skip the extras but I decided I may as well get it all out of the way so tomorrow I don't have to go to the gym at all.
posted by Sue Gilman at 12:00 AM

Friday, February 08, 2002
It's the weekend...woohoo!!! I got up at 6.15am, Mike was leaving to drive to a ski tournament for the weekend, so I just jumped on here and now it is 8.30am :) I will go to the gym at 9am this morning - usually I would walk before I go, but it is horrible outside, windy, cold (well cold for summer!) and just really..unpleasant! I walked on the treadmill last night after my leg workout. That was tough, I was pretty tired after working legs. I love pushing those 6 55lb plates on the leg press...I'm sure women in the gym die when they see me doing that - you know how it is...ughh...I will get HUGE legs from pushing all that weight, I should be using 5lb plates and doing 1500 reps per set to "slim" them down :))

Weight is creeping down...106.6lb this morning.

I see Zach has put my ugly photos up :( Oh well a reminder every time I log in as to what my goals are!! I am definitely seeing changes every day, my upper body is really quite lean and my lower...well, it's starting to get there. It's so frustrating, because I can think that I look great in the mirror, then I take a photo and it just doesn't look the same!!!

I have sold almost all my original Durathon stock already, having some more shipped to me. I've already had one girl say she definitely feels more alert during the day while using it and it has only been about 5 days since she started. I started up a new email address just for my Durathon sales...it is durathon@yahoo.com.au I figure it will be easier to track that way.

Well, time to get dressed and hit the gym. I have chest and biceps today. I might skip the extras, and go in tomorrow just to do them.

Oh we didn't end up going out for dinner last night, I remembered it is Valentine's Day next Thursday and that happens to be the day before I go to Melbourne and also a day off from training so we are going to go out for that :) Maybe go to the Stonegrill and have one of their 4inch high steaks :))


posted by Sue Gilman at 1:34 PM

Thursday, February 07, 2002
Things are still going flat out (busy) and it has been great! I had my telephone interview last night which lasted about 30 minutes. They already have an essay from me so they just wanted to ask a few more questions about certain things. It was pretty casual. My friend Steve from www.2-fit.com is going to make me a page on his site, especially for the article in the magazine. They said they would publish the link so everyone could see all my pics. Steve has been so unreal in helping me out with this, he is already a very busy man, yet he still is so generous with his time. I am going to send him a little Australian package soon :)

Last night I worked back, and this morning I walked to the gym, worked triceps and had Vince drive me home. He said on the way home that I had "lost a lot of weight" and that it was "falling off me". Hoping he meant this in a positive way. I think he did.

I have been trying to buy a pair of shoes for my comp, but everyone seems to have sold out of the ones I want :( I may end up having to buy them from the US, although I don't have much of a time frame left. I really need to get wearing them in! Most likely I will have to buy the ones in Melbourne for $220 :( I was hoping I could avoid paying that much - the ones I want are $145 or $50 US!!

posted by Sue Gilman at 5:52 PM

Wednesday, February 06, 2002
I have still been feeling really great...I get a bit hungry in the mornings, but if I grab a bite of my chicken that I have for lunch, with my morning apple, then that satisfies me until lunch.

Things are SO full on right now, it is great! There is one problem though and that is I never get to see my husband :( We have to make a date with each other just to catch up! Serious, I decided we should go out for dinner tomorrow night, because he is leaving early Sat a.m. to go away for a ski tournament and he won't be back until Sunday night. Then the following weekend I will be going to Melbourne again for 4 days. Trouble is going out for dinner...I get to eat boring old fish and veg/salad and no wine. Oh well the company will make up for it!

I have lost almost a lb on the scales in the last 2 days - this is good because it stopped after my initial loss. Not that I want to lose a lot of scale weight, but that will happen as I lose body fat.

I have my interview in 2 hours, I haven't even really thought about it much!!

I am training back tonight, my first training since coming back from Melbourne (other than my 2 hours of walking per day!). It's funny, I count walking days as days off, but it's still 2 hours of exercise!

posted by Sue Gilman at 7:40 PM

Tuesday, February 05, 2002
I have some really cool news :) I just received an email telling me that I was selected as the monthly winner of the Australian Ironman Magazine's Body Challenge!! I am going to be in national print!! I'm pretty excited, can you tell??
I will be in the Women's Fitness & Sport, the "women's edition" of Ironman magazine. They are calling me for an interview tomorrow afternoon.
What it is, there are the 2 magazines, the Ironman and the Womens Fitness & Sport mag, and each year they have a Transformation Challenge, like Body For Life. They select a monthly winner and publish the winner's story in the magazine. At the end of the year, they select a guy and a girl as the overall winners - the prizes are a trip to the Gold Coast, a $5000 supplement sponsorship, and a $1000 clothing sponsorship, plus a cover story in the mag and paid promotional work for the following year. I'm not getting too excited about that, but still, it's pretty cool, don't ya think??

With the monthly win, I get a free 12 month subscription (hopefully to Ironman rather than Women's Fitness!) and books/videos to the value of $150. Plus the feature in the mag.

More later.
posted by Sue Gilman at 6:42 PM

Monday, February 04, 2002
One thing I forgot to say yesterday was that Tondra really LOVED my choice of music. She was so excited about it, she took the CD home with her and next day at the gym she rushed over to me to tell me how much she loved it! She said she will be able to come up with something really sexy for it. She also suggested getting a big American Flag to walk out on stage with (song is American Woman).

I just finished lunch and it is just after 12! My hunger is starting to kick in now it seems. This morning I woke at 2 something, my cat jumped on the bed with me and I didn't get back to sleep so I got up at 3am!! I think I am becoming nocturnal!! I walked at 5am. I just have to last out the rest of the day now!! Might take a little snooze when i get home from work.

I have booked in for a massage tomorrow night - that will be heaven!!

9.30pm Well the walk at 7pm was difficult, I should not have come home and settled down, just gone right out after work. However, I did it, and it actually got easier the longer I was out.

I am so tired now, just about to hit the sack. Didn't even have my diet jelly tonight :) Feel like a big piece of chicken right now!
posted by Sue Gilman at 5:18 PM

I am home sweet home, thankfully. OMG what a trip back, nothing out of the ordinary, but my body was so drained and tired from the tough workouts and all the walking I did, that a 6 hour drive home was just not what I needed! Plus, I actually took a wrong turn coming out of the city and got lost for awhile which was pretty stressful. I just stopped at a servo (gas station) and asked directions, and I was 3 sets of traffic lights away from the street I needed.

I I walked all around the city yesterday, shopping and what-not...by the time I got back to the hotel it was 3pm. So, from 9 until 3 I was walking around, apart from the hour I spent on the internet. I drove to the gym, and was feeling so tired and hungry, that I walked up to the grocery store and bought a punnet of strawberries to eat prior to training. I trained, chest/biceps, very hard. Right after the workout I had to get changed and "parade" for George on a little table, with my gstring and bra, and high heels! Anyway, his comments were (nodding his head) "Coming down", meaning the weight off my hips and butt. The result was I have to stay doing exactly what I have been doing, so no oatmeal :( And still walking 2 x day. Bummer. Then we went straight into posing training. There were about 12 women in there, some competing in April, some not. All shapes and sizes. Deborah (current Ms Figure Australia) talked about the competition and about music, presentation etc. Then we all lined up, while George went through a little speech to tell us how he treats all of "his girls" the same, he gives all of us his heart, his spirit, etc. He went on for awhile about diet abd how not to tell anyone what we are eating and not to ask anyone else what they are eating. He said that now we will start to look good, people will want to know what we are doing and will give all kinds of advice - don't listen to them!

Then we went throught the 1/4 turns, and the 5 mandatory poses - front double bicep, side chest, back double bicep, tricep, and thighs and abs. I actually see a bit of a six pack happening tonight! My back is very lean now too, just have to wait for the butt to catch up :( We went through all the poses about 4 times, and then he called us out one by one to go through on our own in front of everyone. Good experience.

I started training at 4.30pm. and didn't get out of there until after 8pm. I was SO tired when I got back to the hotel, and I had to fix my chicken breasts for dinner and the next day for travelling home. I dragged myself to take a shower after dinner, then went to bed really early. Got up today at 6am, packed up my stuff, loaded the car, had breakfast and coffee, then drove to the gym. Trained at 8am. Today was shoulders and hammies. When I woke up my entire body was aching, I had to stretch for quite a while to get rid of the aches. I really was not looking forward to training shoulders as I trained chest the previous day and triceps the day before that! And they were all sore. I am really pleased at how hard I have to train with George. It is torture at the time but afterwards you really know you have worked. With a lot of the exercises, the last few reps are impossible to lift, and along with that, Geoge pushes again me pushing, so the weight just doesn't go anywhere. I push with every damn muscle I have in my body (ie. think I pulled a calf muscle while doing preacher curls!!) but that weight just doesn't move!!

I was SO hungry on the drive home today, mostly exhaustion I think. I ate my egg whites and 2tbsp rice before training, then my apple after training, then my tuna about an hour after that. At 11.30am I started eating my lunch! Chicken, 3tbsp rice and salad. I had made 2 chicken breasts and I ate them both!!! But man, I felt SO much better after that. I just munched on veggies for the rest of the way home.

Time for bed. I feel really hungry tonight, I guess that means I should be losing some fat :) It's good to be home again. I am going back in 2 weeks. Oh yeah, instead of 4 days training per week, we now have to train 5 days per week :( Getting harder all the time.

posted by Sue Gilman at 2:20 AM

Saturday, February 02, 2002
I'm in the city, going to do a bit of shopping this morning - my training session isn't until 5pm. I walked in from the hotel, only about a 40 minute walk. Once again I had to wait around until 10am for everything to open!

My session yesterday was tough! More so triceps than legs if you can believe that! My triceps fatigue extremely easily and I really struggled to lift anything after doing pushdowns, bench dips and kneeling tri push. I still had to do supersets of french presses, and close grip presses, followed by overhead DB extensions. I was pleased with my leg workout, I need to work that hard on squats all the time, but it's impossible without a spotter. I plan to change that. George gave me another exercise to do too, supersetting the forward facing hack squats with backward facing ones. If that makes sense - I don't know what else you would call them!

After my workout yesterday I spent a bit of time with Tondra - she showed me a routine she had choreographed for a lady in NSW. She also put me through the 5 mandatory poses, and was really pleased with how I did them. She said I would have no problems. The worst thing is, doing them in those damn shoes!! That will be the big test.

I then rushed home, eating my chicken in the car on the way, showered, and met Wayne at the foyer of the hotel. He took me to a cafe and we ordered coffees and chatted about the Durathon, among other things. He is a very funny guy, he told so many great stories about how he got into the bodybuilding industry. As I mentioned previously, he is the Australian president, and world vice-president of the INBA (International Natural Body Building Association). He would only be in his late 30's I would guess. I didn't know this, but he once worked in LA for Muscle & Fitness magazine, interviewed heaps of famous bodybuilders and even went to a party thrown by Arnold. What an eye-opener that was, he said. Movie stars and bodybuilders everywhere.

He told me all about the research that has been done on Durathon, and how the herb ciwujia has been used by the Chinese for thousands of years. There has recently been a lot of research to show that it also lowers the heart rate and so is useful in healthy heart protection. Along with that, it boosts the immune system tremendously, and is excellent for colds etc (like Vit C). If you feel a cold coming on - up the dose and watch the symptoms disappear!

He said he could almost market the product in 4 different boxes, there are so many benefits of it. He won't market everything together (i.e. as it is now, they do not mention the heart benefits or immune system benefits on the box) as he says that then it would appear that it is some kind of magic "snake-oil" or something, but it does have a lot of varying benefits. It is particularly effective as a stress-response herb...so anyone under any form of stress will benefit, be it mental or physical. This is where I have definitely felt the benefits. Dieting is EASY!!!! Hunger curbed, energy increased, stress free!!

Ok time to go shopping. It is freezing here!!!
posted by Sue Gilman at 4:03 PM

Friday, February 01, 2002
Hi from the "Big Smoke" :) I am filling in time while waiting for my 2nd training session (legs - ugh!) with George. It is pouring rain here, very unusual for Melbourne (bit of sarcasm there). Last night I arrived in Melbourne after a LONG 6 hour drive - I had to stop for a "power nap" at one point as I was getting very sleepy. I trained at 7pm and it was Day 3 - back/traps. I got there early and started doing my ab work, and when George walked by he put his arm around me asked how I was doing and said "You gettin' skinny!" Keep in mind he has a very thick German accent, so it's pretty amusing, sometimes he is really difficult to understand. During the training, I was on the last exercise, the shrug machine, and as he stood by to spot me, he patted my right shoulder and said something to his son who was training somebody else nearby. Michael nodded. When I finished my set I asked George what he said, and he said "I say to Michael - looks good! (my shoulder)". When I was all done and waiting at the counter, George said to me - "you look good baby" (he calls everyone "baby", it's just his way). He said "I can't tell you you look good all the time though, because then you will cheat!". I said "That's ok, so long as you think I can make it?" He said "oh yeah, you stay on the diet and don't cheat, you will make it easy. Don't worry. I got good plans for you." So, hearing this made me feel so much better!!!

I just got a call from Wayne, the Durathon man...he is meeting me at my hotel at 5pm to discuss it.

I saw Tondra yesterday too, who is choreographing my routine for me. I will chat to her in more detail today. She said George wants lots of back poses because I have an "awesome" back :))) She was saying that because I am so small that I will make the comp with no problem. She said she did it in 6 weeks!!! (she is tinier than me). She said that I was in "perfect" condition for at this stage of preparation. She said that some of the girls are ready now, but she said there is no point in that, to be dieting for so long.

There was a hail storm last night while I was training, it stopped by the time I was finished, but when I went to check in at the hotel I had to park a long way away, and carry all my crap with me while using an umbrella. I had 2 trips before I got all my stuff up there. All my food and stuff :) It was 9pm by this stage and I just took a shower, and vegged out in front of the cricket on tv. I had a great night's sleep, waking up at 6am. It's so weird getting up so early on weekends! I went for a walk at 6.30am, and walked around the Shrine of Remembrance. Never been there in all the times I've been to Melbourne. It was kind of eerie so early in the morning, it is a huge park, with a hugh path and stairs leading to this huge stone building. Kind of like walking up to the Taj Mahal while nobody was there?? :) The park has lots of trees, all with a memorial underneath, each for something different, for events that happened during the wars.

I then had a coffee when I got back to the hotel, then cooked my eggs in the guest kitchen which is just outside my room - very convenient. Then I drove into Richmond, where George's gym is...but decided I would go have a look at a workout wear store. Nothing opened until 10am so I had to go to a cafe and have another coffee and made a call to Mike, and also my mum. Then I tried on some clothes, and I bought some 3/4 length yellow/black/white pants and a light blue singlet (tank top for you guys in the US!). Then on the way back to the car, I stumbled over one of my favorite stores...an outlet store. I once bought a groovy top there for just $5. This time I came out with 4 tops for $5 (2 for my friend Shazza that I will send to her), and a little skirt for $20, another off the shoulder black evening top, for $20. I am definitely losing weight, as all these clothes fit me perfectly! Actually, even one of the size 8's was too big! (Size 8 in AUS is the smallest size they make, some company's make 6's but not many). Here I was thinking I had done so well with all these bargains...I got out to the car and I had a parking ticket!!! :(( $50!!! Not such good bargains after all.

Ok well think I've covered most things, talk about a long entry today :)

I read through all the others too...Joe, keep your chin up buddy. You did well to get through and keep going. That is what brings success. Things do sound very stressful for you right now. I don't have your email addy with me right now, otherwise I would reply personally :)

posted by Sue Gilman at 5:47 PM

Thursday, January 31, 2002
Last night I was really pretty tired, I got home from work and had a bit of a nap, after I had something to eat. I got up, went for my walk, feeling a lot better. It was still a bit of a struggle though. I had to cook all my food to take with me when i got back, and pack up my gear. I was also meant to wash my car but that just didn't happen.

My weight hasn't really gone down any (well .4lb if that) since the start of the week, I guess I just have to be patient. I am starting to "feel" it though, and see it.

I am starting to panic though when I think of the time frame. It is coming up so fast, and I still have so much to learn and do before then!

Anyway, I am working this morning, and will leave for Melbourne at lunchtime, training with George at 7pm. Will be interesting to hear what he has to say about me this time! Not sure if I want to hear it or not! I will get online in Melbourne and catch up on all my email and so forth. I am meeting with the Durathon man, Wayne McDonald, who is going to run through the product with me so i can start distributing it. It's still doing wonderful things for me. He also happens to be the Australian president of the bodybuilding association I am competing in (INBA) so it will be good to meet him.
posted by Sue Gilman at 3:08 PM

Wednesday, January 30, 2002
I woke at 5am this morning, sleep in hahaha. Anyway, it is 4pm and I am feeling quite tired now. I still have energy but my eyes need to sleep. Last night I didn't make my second walk of the day...it caught up with me in the end. Took a bath, went to bed around 9.30pm.

I just realized that I have made a mistake calculating the weeks to my comp and the end of my Challenge! I don't finish the Challenge on the date of my comp I finish the weekend before! Which is a bummer, because it is Easter!
posted by Sue Gilman at 9:15 PM

And today I am back to waking at 4am!! Oh well, it doesn't bother me if I am feeling this good. Who needs sleep?!! Went walking at 5am after checking email, then to gym at 6.15am for hamstrings. They felt like jelly afterwards. Productive day at work, and now just arrived home from the gym after a shoulder workout. I am feeling a little bit tired, but not too bad. I just need some food! Waiting for my fish to cook.

I got the remainder of my professional photos back finally, will try to scan them later.

posted by Sue Gilman at 12:24 AM

Tuesday, January 29, 2002
Would you believe I slept through my alarm today?? Every other day I wake up in the middle of the night!! Anyway, so I missed my morning walk, and instead finished up work at 4pm to start my first trek of the day. About to go for my second one now (8pm).

Very productive day at work, both work-wise and answering email! I actually have another little project on the go at the moment - I am seriously considering becoming a distributor for the supplement Durathon. It has done such good things for me I want to tell everybody about it! You remember how skeptical i was about it to begin with, well, I am sure that is what is making me feel so energetic, stress free, etc. I felt like a wreck when I tried this exact same diet and training regime about 2 months ago. Now there is no stopping me!

I am quite sore today in the biceps and chest, which makes me happy. Who says I don't train hard enough when I train alone?? (VInce does).

I got the catalogue for competition shoes in the mail today - OMG how big are these damn shoes?? I am sure I will have trouble walking in them!! They might look ridiculous seeing I am so small. I won't buy them yet, but I will take the catalogue with me to Melbourne and see what is down there.

Tonight i have promised myself to have only a small serve of protein for dinner seeing as I was Miss Piggy last night. So, I ate another veal steak - just one this time. And spinach and brussels sprouts. I love brussels sprouts, is that weird or what? I just have my diet jello to eat later.

Sounds like you are training like a madman Joe, and seeing great results!! Keep it up.

I
posted by Sue Gilman at 12:56 AM

Monday, January 28, 2002
Had a very energetic day today! Walked twice before 2pm, the second time before I left I looked around for my headphones as I wanted to listen to music for a change - usually I just walk - it's my thinking time :) Anyway, it was great with some music, it made me walk even faster, and the time passes more quickly. Then we went to the movies - we saw Jeepers Creepers and both of us would put it up there in our Worst Movies Ever list :( It was terrible. Then tonight I went to the gym and trained chest/bis and extras. Vince, after talking to him yesterday, didn't show up which really made me a bit p*****d off as I planned my whole day around training at 6pm. So I trained alone, yet still managed to increase my bench press on 2 full sets. Also my DB flys and DB curls. My arms are aching just sitting here typing!!

My energy (and stress) levels are still great...I am so so excited about that.

I was pretty hungry when I got home...we had a barbie. We cooked some veal steaks and they were awesome, except I think I ate too much! I ate 3 steaks (thin ones) but I checked the pack and it would have weighed around 300g raw :) BIG protein meal. Guess I made up for lunch time when I only had a half chicken breast. George hasn't actually told me an amount in grams to eat, he's funny with measurements like that. He said 1.5 chicken breasts and 2 pieces (how big??) fish. His explanation for how much oatmeal to eat was a plastic coffee cup, 3/4 filled!!! What's wrong with a regular measuring cup!!!

I did at least sleep in until 7.15am this morning. Hard to believe that counts as a sleep in these days!! I remember when I used to go to school (way back then!!), on weekends I would sleep until 2 in the afternoon sometimes!! My record was 4pm!!!
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I will have a busy week at work this week, trying to finish off my project before I go to Melbourne. Short week for me, holiday today and half day off Friday.

Might go take a bath, soothe my aching body :)
posted by Sue Gilman at 1:47 AM

Saturday, January 26, 2002
Today I woke up at 4am, was wide awake and couldn't get back to sleep! Why is this happening to me?? Anyway, I got up, turned on the computer and replied to my email. As it is going to be another hot day I decided to walk from 7-8am. Just finished my breakfast of 4 egg whites and 2 tbsp rice....yum!!! JOKE. Actually, I do like egg whites and rice. Usually I would add heaps of salt to them though, but now I have to have them plain.

My quads are sore already!!! This is great because even last week when I trained with George, they didn't get sore! It was the extensions first up I think, I really pushed it yesterday.

I feel so tired now. I am going to be Guest "speaker" on the Yahoo BFL Armed Forces Club in a half hour so will have another coffee to keep me going :)

I have been trying to figure out what kind of suit I want to wear for my comp. I need two, one for the morning, one for the evening (routine round). Might do some surfing...

8pm Starting to feel tired, and very stiff and sore! I just came back from a shortened walk due to having really bad pains in the stomach. I was doubled over with pain at one point. They have subsided now. It is probably a touch of the flu bug that my husband has. I just hope I don't get sick, that would NOT be good at this point.

I have lost 2kg (4.4lb) this week!! I went out and bought some new scales today (digital) as my old ones were the pits. And totally inaccurate. So, I weighed tonight before dinner and I was 49.8 kg. I will weigh every morning and night from now on and write it down.

I called George tonight and told him I was feeling really good and had lost 2 kg. He was happy, and said to keep up the same routine until he takes a look at me this Friday. I am really looking foward to starting posing. As a sidenote, I really have trouble flexing my left bicep correctly. In all my photos you can see that it is nowhere near as flexed as my right one. I don't know why.

I found out from the President of the INBA that at the show, the 3 rounds (prejudging) are done in the morning - posing, symmetry and routine, but (and I've never heard of this) only the best 60 seconds of the routine, and WITHOUT music!!! How weird is that? In the evening, the routines will be done fully, and to music.

Think I will be in bed early tonight. We didn't make the movies last night, got there half hour too early and couldn't be bothered waiting....we were both pretty tired by then and Mike wasn't feeling good either.

We have a public holiday tomorrow :) Nice long weekend. It is Australia Day. Well, it was AD yesterday but the holiday is tomorrow :) Training chest and biceps tomorrow, but the gym doesn't open until 4pm.
posted by Sue Gilman at 1:30 PM

Friday, January 25, 2002
I woke at 6am on the weekend!! Bummer. So, I got up, wrote some email, then decided to go for my first walk of the day, as I knew it was going to be stinking hot and not good walking weather. It was perfect (still hot) at 8am. I trained at 11am - big day. Legs. Triceps. Extras. Took me close to 2 hours.

And I just realized that I forgot to do my last tricep exercise of Overhead DB Extensions!!! Anyway, then I went on to my ab work, which is now taking quite awhile because I have so many reps to do (50 reps x 4 of 2 exercises). I was SO glad when it was all done! I really went hard too. I increased my weight on the leg extension and still used 330lbs on leg press (after extensions, squats and alternate leg press I am pretty pleased with that weight! 3 x my body weight :) )

I am planning on taking a nap soon, not that I feel too tired yet, but I think I need it.

Zach, are you crazy?? Your favorite exercise is squatting??? :)) Congrats on getting up there in the weights again, you are really smokin'!!! It seems like we all did squats today!

Oh Zach - I have already started my Official BFL Challenge - its started 7.1.02 (thought that was when you started too) and will end on the exact date of my comp!!! Originally the comp was a week later, but now seeing they brought it forward, it is the same day!! I might get my After pics done the day before in Melbourne. Will have to find another photographer too. BUT I think it is a fabulous idea of yours! Joe, did you officially enter yet?

I tried to take a nap before...I couldn't sleep. I am so bright-eyed and bushy-tailed (Aussie expression??) I can't believe it! Even looking forward to my second walk of the day, in about 10 mins.

We are going to the movies tonight, I hope I don't crash during it!


posted by Sue Gilman at 7:20 PM

Tonight I started to feel a bit fatigued, but I still managed to walk strong during my 2nd walk of the day. I had a tough back workout, which wasn't made any easier by a really sore spot in my shoulder reaching up to my neck. It bugged me all day at work, I stretched and prodded at it continuously as it was aching. In the end my whole left side upper body was aching. I just took a bath and will soon get my husband to give me a back rub :)

I did upright rows and shrugs this morning along with my extras. Tonight was as follows:

Lat Pulldown to back
Lat Pulldown to front
Close Grip Pulldown
Seated Row
T-Bar Row 1
T-Bar Row 2 (2 different grips)

I had more correspondence with Michael from Kelmix Corp today. We are looking at the end of February to do a photo shoot :)

Sanieh, glad to hear you eat diet jelly too :) It can't be all bad then. By the way, your photo looks great.

Well that's about it from me, really tired now, ready for my back rub.

posted by Sue Gilman at 3:12 AM

Thursday, January 24, 2002
I am starting to see some shape to my thighs..woohoo!! Even Vince said so tonight. The best news of the day is that I still have ENERGY!!! I walked twice again today, with energy to burn :) I haven't been getting sleepy at work, plus, I am not feeling at all like I am starving. It was 10.45am before I realized I hadn't eaten my apple!

II emailed Michael (the guy from Kelmix Corp) regarding their line of clothing, and he asked if I'd be interested in having some photos done for their catalogue. He said he really would love to do some sunrise/sunset photos in the outback, as in Australia this year it has been named the Year of the Outback :) So, we are still working on it.

ITomorrow I am walking to the gym once again (this is about a 50 minute walk) and training back/traps. I will probably walk there after work also. I am considering changing around the days that I train so that I can train legs during the week so Vince can push me. It's difficult to work hard enough with squats without a spotter. Although he doesn't spot like George does for squats! George has his arms under my armpits and stands right behind me and goes up and down with me!! I do absolute full squats with him, bouncing off my calves. I stand on a piece of board which apparently places the emphasis more on your quads than your glutes. Somebody please correct me if I am wrong!

Anyway, that's about all for now, I think I best get to bed early tonight as I've had late ones the last couple.
posted by Sue Gilman at 1:47 AM

Tuesday, January 22, 2002
Today has been another great day, so far! I walked to the gym this morning, worked my hamstrings:
I called George last night to book in for next weekend's training. They are also starting the posing training that weekend. I spoke to Tondra Taylor (who is a judge and co-ordinates routines if required) who suggested I get my music organized to bring down with me that weekend. Well, I had been thinking about music over the last couple of months but not really decided. So, today I had to call around looking for someone who could dubb my cd (not a simple task out here in the "sticks"! Even the radio station balked). I called a place called Kelmix, a name I recognized from some adverts in an Australian Body Building magazine. They produce aerobic tapes and also do other "stuff" with music I suppose :) They also sell a small range of workout wear I came to find out. The guy I spoke with was really interested in my competition, as he knows Lyndal (girl from here who made Ms Australia through training with George) and knew of George and so forth. We spoke for quite a while - anyway, he said they could do my CD (I decided in a bit of a hurry that I would stick with my favorite, American Woman by Lenny Kravitz - even though I'm Aussie!) but would need to send it away to another branch to make them. I asked what the charge would be and he said they wouldn't charge me, but would like to use me for advertising and promotional work if I would like :) How cool is that!! He said they have a catalogue coming out soon for their clothing range! I also have to thank my best buddy Steve from www.2-fit.com for downloading heaps of possible routine songs for me.

Also, JT from www.truebodies.com asked me if I would like to feature on his new "fitness women" site.

AND, I received an encouraging email from Terri Roberts, who is the current Ms Australia and Ms World Figure for the NABBA association. I have cut and pasted it below:

Sue
There is absolutely no reason whatsoever why you cant make it. You look
great!!! 10 weeks is plenty of time, you need to keep your protein up and I
suggest you definitely need some carbs in the morning (oatmeal), your
muscles look flat, you can keep getting leaner whilst growing muscle and
with 2 hours cardio a day you definitely need carbs. I am judging this on
these photos - how recent are they. You have a lovely shape and are in
very good condition for 10 weeks out.

Don't worry about anything, things should just get better from here in.
Posing needs a little work, don't forget on stage you must create an
illusion - only let the judges see you in the best shape possible, and
posing is the way to do this.

Regards
Terri

So, there you go, it has been a GOOD day!

9.05pm Tonight I walked to the gym again, then trained shoulders and did my "extras":

I was really hungry when I got home, wolfed down my chicken and green veg, now I have just finished my lemon flavored diet jello. It didn't taste too good actually :( Might have a decaf coffee now to finish off.

So, my day has been a good one - I got a lot of work done, amidst trying to catch up on all my email :)
posted by Sue Gilman at 9:46 PM

Hi everyone :) I am feeling much happier today. I trained hard yesterday, I went to the gym at 6am to do my chest workout as well as extras...then after work I walked for an hour on the treadmill...then I trained biceps. I took it a little easier on biceps as they were still sore from my back workout on Saturday! Also the forearm problem was annoying me during curls again. After my bicep workout I went home, ate my dinner of grilled fish and green veggies, then went off walking again. Today I got up and walked at 6.15am - it was hard this morning, on an empty stomach, my legs just didn't want to move! Then tonight i walked once again. I will be clocking up some miles on my shoes!!

I don't get a lot of time to do much else but train these days :( I am hoping it won't be like this the whole entire time, hopefully if I can start shedding a bit more quickly I can go back to one walk per day. And some oatmeal!!

I got a couple of really nice emails from my Dream Team buddies....thanks for keeping my spirits up guys :)

Tomorrow I am walking to the gym at 5.30am, then will train hamstrings. I will get a ride home with Vince, the guy who trained me through my first Challenge. He is one of Australia's top powerlifters and has competed in bodybuilding before also, so he knows a lot and I respect his opinions and advice. He has offered to let me train with him and his buddy as they train exactly the same days as I do. That will be good, because he will definitely make sure i am not slacking off! Oh, and he told me today that he had a girl come to him last night while he was training and I was walking on the treadmill, and she wanted to know if he trained me. She then asked him to do a program and diet for her :)

Well that's about it, I am going to try uploading some holiday pics now after reading my fellow Dream Team journals :)


posted by Sue Gilman at 2:06 AM

Sunday, January 20, 2002
Well I have a bit of catching up to do. I am back at work today and have been really busy, not a lot of time to catch up on my email and so forth.

I trained with George on Saturday - back/traps. Sunday I trained at 11am, this time legs/triceps. I have a few photos of me squatting, but they didn't turn out too well. After the workout (legs didn't seem as tough as usual, but triceps killed me, I had George yelling at me "C'mon, show the Melbourne girls you Mildura girls are stronger!". He told while I was doing some leg exercises that I looked great and to keep up the diet and we would get there, no problem. However, he changed his mind when I got up on the table in my g-string and bra. He always gets us to "parade" for him so he can check out how we are coming up. Anyway, he said I'd put on weight since I last saw him, which isn't true (November). He now has me cutting out my oatmeal and walking for 2 hours per day again :( Back to the diet from hell :( Thing is, I have a week less than I thought too, because they have brought the competition forward a week :(
Deborah came into the room while I paraded for George. She must have felt really bad for me because she said to me after he left, "When I first started, every time I came in here I nearly ended up in tears after hearing what George had to say."

So on the way out George came to the counter to speak to me and said "Don't hate me!! I have to tell you when you don't look good, I have to be honest.

He also sold me a new supplement called Durathon. It's meant to change your metabolism somehow so you burn fat rather than carbohydrates. Meant to be good for fatigue also. It is an herb, called Ciwujia. I have never heard of it. Thing is, George normally hates supplements! He believes it is just a money-making game. He doesn't have his clients use any protein supps, or creatine, glutamine or anything else.

Another reason that the date being moved sucks is that the week prior is one that I really am not supposed to take off work...one of our bills is due and I hate not pulling my weight when we are busy.

So, there is my gripe for the day. I was pretty depressed on the way home last night (6 hour drive). However, I have decided not to let it get me down, I will try my hardest to get there, and if it happens that I don't, I will go for the next comp in August.


posted by Sue Gilman at 8:46 PM

Friday, January 18, 2002
I am back from Hobart...last night we went out for dinner and I planned to have fish, but it was a grill and the steaks sounded really nice again so I had another eye fillet. It came out on a bed of garlic mashed potato, which unfortunately I managed to pick at and ended up eating half of it :( Very mad at myself for that. This morning we went to the dreaded Cadbury's chocolate factory...it was really good, apart from the fact that I couldn't eat any of the free chocolate they were giving out. However, I did put it all in my pocket for a later date :) I ate pieces of my protein bar while the others munched on the real thing. It worked for me.

I ate a whole pack of diet jello tonight.

No training today, just walked today and yesterday. Oh, I had a massage while in Hobart...it was great, just what I needed at the time. Tonight is our last night here - I think the guys have gone out to get a video. We leave at lunchtime and I go training at 4pm.

Joe - I am fine, thanks for asking :)
posted by Sue Gilman at 2:40 AM

Wednesday, January 16, 2002
This morning sometime we are off to Hobart for the night, 2 hour drive to get there. I have cooked my lunches for today and tomorrow, so am organized there.

We went to the Roman Baths last night which was pretty cool. Nice and relaxing, felt dead afterwards. Had a great night's sleep last night.

Ok, well not much more happening, no training for today or tomorrow, so time to rest up before another tough session with George on Saturday. Back home on Sunday after a 6 hour drive. Time to go pack a suitcase (and an esky - cooler to you Yanks) for our overnight stay.
posted by Sue Gilman at 3:20 PM

Tuesday, January 15, 2002
Well yesterday Mike and I trained - this time we went to a different gym as the one I had been going to didn't have some of the equipment I needed for my chest and bicep workout. As it turned out, this gym didn't have much more. I still managed a pretty good workout, particularly with biceps. I think I strained something in my left forearm though, it was really hurting during the straight bar curls. We didn't end up going to the Gorge yesterday either, by the time we got home and ate lunch, we were both so tired and decided to have a little nap instead. When I woke I decided it was getting too late to go so I just went for my own walk for an hour. Then last night when Sharon and Dave got home from work, we went to a steak restaurant for dinner. I was SO looking forward to a nice steak, and believe me, they didn't disappoint! It was awesome...280g eye fillet. I could have ordered a 180g size but I am a piggy :) I ate it all too. We went to an Irish Pub for a drink afterwards and I was good, I just had a diet coke. I am not supposed to be having that either, but I figure it is a better choice than anything else (except water I suppose).

Today we trained again, hamstrings and shoulders this time. We went back to the no-gstrings/no posing/no mirrors gym this time. After this we had to drop off our hire car and bus it back to Sharon and Dave's. We had to walk a bit of the way - this, plus the walk to the casino in the afternoon and back, counted as my powerwalking. Tonight Shazza and I are going to the Aquarius Roman Baths...we couldn't get in for a massage right after which was a real bummer, so we are just doing the baths thing. This will still be nice.

I am feeling hungry right now...and I just ate my tuna and the other half of my oatmeal. Shazza is cooking a roast for dinner - I was originally going to have that, but I ate my red meat last night, so will cook my own fish instead I think (or chicken). Tomorrow we are driving to Hobart for a night, it might be difficult getting my food together for 2 days seeing as there won't be a microwave. I have decided that my treat at the Chocolate Factory will be - a Musashi Choc Hazelnut protein bar. I figure that way it is something to look forward to, and I won't feel deprived while the others are scoffing all the free chocolates during the tour. What do you think? :) I won't tell George :)

Zach tells me he got a call from EAS...how awesome is that? I wish you luck Zach :) It would be cool to have someone I "know" as an EAS Champ.

Well, I will be home in about 5 days. It is so cold here considering it is mid-summer! Give me some heat anyday.

Oh yeah! I weighed myself again at the gym today, and I have lost almost half a kilo in 4 days. Not bad, pretty happy with that, considering Mike has put on 1.6kg!! That's all Shazza's good cooking.

I have two days off from training now, and will train again in Melbourne on Saturday/Sunday.
posted by Sue Gilman at 9:55 PM

Monday, January 14, 2002
I guess I spoke too soon about the diet not being that difficult! I struggled a bit yesterday, what with going to a cheese factory and Mike and Shazza tasting every bit of cheese imaginable...I just bought stuff instead. Then we visited a honey factory and I did taste a few of these - just dipped the end of a pop stick into a couple. Then we did a cave tour with Dave and a group of others which was really amazing to see. Then we drove up to the top of a mountain but by this stage (5.30pm) I was feeling really hungry and grumpy because I needed to eat so I stayed in the car while they went up. I had to eat my raspberries and diet jelly. So by the time we got all organized for our barbie, it was after 8pm and yes I was very hungry. They were all snacking on cheese and crackers while I didn't have anything :( That was pretty difficult. I felt much better after my big fish steak though. Then we almost ran out of petrol on the way home (an hours drive) - we drove home with the light on for 92kms!!

We didn't end up going to the Gorge, but will today.

Today I train chest and biceps. Didn't get sore in the quads from my leg workout the other day, but my butt has been sore.

Saw a couple of dead Tasmanian Devils on the road :(

posted by Sue Gilman at 1:39 PM

Sunday, January 13, 2002
Today is my day off from training, however we are going to Cataract Gorge today and they have lots of nice walks so that will be my walking portion. Then we are going to go to Mole Creek for a cave tour, where Dave just started work for Parks & Wildlife. Then we will stay for a bbq dinner. I have been so good fixing all my meals to take with me.
Tomorrow night we are going out for dinner to a Grill restaurant which is good as I am allowed a steak every few days. Shazza goes back to work tomorrow so Mike and I will have to look after ourselves! We will go to the gym tomorrow and Wednesday, then Thursday and Friday we will be in Hobart.
I haven't been getting too hungry yet, this diet seems pretty ok so far. I can drink up to 2 Musashi Slim diet drinks per day (these are nice) and as much black coffee as I like (which is only about 1, because I much prefer them with milk!).
When I go back next weekend I have to get up on the table in my bikini - so he can check me out. He does this every time I go. He noticed I'd put on a bit of weight from the last time I'd been, as soon as I walked in the gym. I showed him my Ironman pictures and he was really impressed I think, because he wanted to show everyone. He asked me to keep the before photo for him, so I can imagine what he is going to do with it - put it up all over his gym like he has with a couple of other girls before and after pics. I have to send my entry off today.

I There were a couple of girls (one in particular) that George pointed out to me that were going to be competing in April. This one had the 6 pack going already...she looked in awesome shape...she will be in the Tall division so I guess that's good for me!

I asked him about posing and he said next time I go in to make an appointment and he will go through all the compulsory poses with me. I asked about my routine and he said I could speak to Tondra (who is a judge, and also a PT at George's gym) who co-ordinates routines for some of the girls. I need to get going on this side of things as 12 weeks isn't far away! George doesn't seem to be in a rush though.

Ok well that's my update. I'm sure I've missed a heap of things, but can't think of them right now. It's great to see all the other Bloggers doing well and writing some great entries. Keep it up guys.

posted by Sue Gilman at 2:29 PM

Saturday, January 12, 2002
Having a fun time with friends Shazza and Dave, today we are going wine-tasting! So that will be my wine allowance for today. I have been doing really well with the food side of things while here, and they have been great about helping me out and not saying things like "Come on, just one little chocolate won't matter" and stuff like that :) We had a bbq last night - they had snags (sausages) and Dave cooked chicken breasts for me.
Just finished a leg/triceps workout - Shazza came to the gym with me today and yesterday. Mike came along yesterday too. There are lots of pretty walks around here too, so we have been doing some of those too. Yesterday we went to "Seahorse World" which sounds kind of dorky, but it was really interesting. They are such cute little creatures! On Wednesday Sharon and I are booking ourselves into the Roman Baths...and then a massage right after...my body will be needing it by then! The gym we have been going to is kind of weird in that it advertises "No g-strings, no posing, no mirrors".!! It is quite strange without mirrors, I think mirrors are necessary to be able to make sure you are performing an exercise correctly. Then I read a sign that said "No crop tops, bra tops, t-back singlets..."!!! Too funny!! I was wearing a crop top, as I always do. Nobody said anything so I will keep wearing it. That is weird.
I weighed myself today, with workout clothes, and was 52.6kg.
Ok, time to go shower and fix my lunch to take with me on our wine tasting tour. Oh something really funny...I was telling a friend of mine that lives in the US that Tasmanian Devils are extinct...and I found out yesterday that they aren't! It's the Tasmanian Tiger that is extinct, I just got a bit mixed up!! How embarrassing!! I obviously have never seen a Devil.
posted by Sue Gilman at 4:22 PM
Friday, January 11, 2002
I'm in Tassie (Tasmania) staying with friends so don't have a lot of time to write just yet. I trained with George, yesterday and Thursday - I am SO sore. He gave me my diet and I am happy to say it is much more do-able than the previous one. I will write more later.
posted by Sue Gilman at 3:03 PM
Tuesday, January 08, 2002
I am so flat out at work today trying to clean up everything before I leave. I had to take an extra half day off for this afternoon because I have so much to do at home still. I didn't have to train this morning so it was nice to get an extra hour's sleep this morning. I only have to walk tonight.

9.30pm We still don't have everything even close to done, still have to pack and take my kitty around to Mum's house. She's looking after him while we are away.

This afternoon I walked, lacked a bit of energy but not too bad. My eating has been great.

The agenda for tomorrow is, driving to Melbourne (which is a 6 hour drive from Mildura) - we are leaving at 9, and so should get there by 3. I have a training session with George at 6pm, and will be training chest & biceps. This is the first time Mike has been with me when I've trained with him. Then the next morning I train at 7am and by lunchtime we will be flying to Launceston (Tasmania). Not sure what our friends have in store for us while we are there but they know I will be training and dieting.
posted by Sue Gilman at 4:43 PM